What are we going to do for them???

Mankind has accepted the acts of maintaining our homes through fierce control for decades. We’ve turned away as our sons and daughters are being beaten, molested, raped, sodomized; forced to do unspeakable acts, but even with all that I’ve seen change in the past two years it still is not enough!!!

I ask EVERYONE; When will it be bad enough to catch your attention and ask you to do something to help make a difference?

This past March I sent a letter to our wonderful First Lady Michelle Obama, asking she give her voice to recognize this crime and the millions of survivors in our country alone. In April I sent out a blog post asking all politicians, hollywood stars, sports players to speak up and be the one to give their voice and take a stand to protect our kids. In May I emailed President Obama asking our politicians who would be the one to make crimes of abuse against children and within our home a topic for this year’s political campaign. The email was then sent out to our Illinois Senator Richard Durbin. He is the only one who responded at all and that was a simple “Thank you for your interest“!!!

Really, to me it is absolutely unfathomable that we have a society, who I’ve seen only maybe a few hundred or so voices, willing to speak out against these crimes and do it proudly. Its not that we ENJOY talking about these topics, ITS BECAUSE THEY ARE LIFESAVING AND VITAL TO OUR CHILDREN.

How can we honestly look at our kids today, see all the stress and dysfunction they deal with, and not be willing to make this a public topic and one that ALL OF US TAKE PART IN? How can we sit back, turn up the television, block out the screaming babies and pretend we don’t know what’s happening?

The truth is ILLINOIS HAD A TOTAL OF 218 CHILDREN DIE IN 2011 BY ACTS OF PHYSICAL ABUSE OR NEGLECT!!! Senator Durbin, “Does this catch your interest yet?”

I see how the scars of my own abuse bled in to invade the lives of my children. I see how the broken process of thought and good choices, a trained belief that I deserved nothing better, led me to be thankful a man would have me at all. “You are only good for breeding” is just one of the constant brainwashing methods he used to keep me down and in control. He (stepfather) had to make sure that I would never amount to anything worth wild and that I would know the only value I had was between my legs!!!

Friends, if you are like me and carrying around the scars of the horrible acts of rape, molestation, degradation, control through fear; then YOUR CHILDREN ARE AT RISK OF BEING PLACED IN A CONTINUED PATTERN OF ACCEPTING WHAT YOU WERE TRAINED TO BELIEVE. Please do not make those same mistakes!!!

Our children, all around the globe, need us, as RESPONSIBLE ADULTS,  to step up now; PROTECT THEM NOW and make it a very important topic for everyone!!! There is no shame that a survivor of abuse should have to bear, simply because someone mistreated, beat, or raped them. Why is this their shame? Did they do something wrong? THEY WERE CHILDREN – how can a child fight off an adult they have to call Mom or Dad?

Yes we want to believe it doesn’t happen inside our wonderful little homes, but guess what???? This is exactly where 93% of these crimes exist, BEHIND THE WALLS MEANT TO PROTECT US!!! Again, using the Illinois DCFS stats for 2011. We had 14,028 cases of Parental Abuse called into the center; we only had 823 cases where a stranger or someone outside of the family circle was involved.

KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT ABUSE!!!

I invite you as one survivor to another, please check out the new website and you can sign the guest book for GENERATION NO MORE!!! You are also invited to request membership in Survivors World online support group for both men and women who have been victims of ANY FORM OF ABUSE!!! We all need the support of others. Most of us have know abuse all our lives and truly are just starting to find out what our lives were meant to be. We all need each other as we build this force to protect the next generation and walk away from the pattern of accepting these acts; standing proud, admiring what we’ve been able to get through, and acknowledge the pain of others.

The ONLY way we will ever end these types of acts within our homes, is by coming together; ONE AND ALL, protecting those within your family, speaking up when another kid is bullied, calling 911 when we see or hear an act of violence against another. These are the things only we can change. There is no miracle pill that is going to change what has been passed down through the ages, ONLY US!!!

Make it count, please do all you can, use your voice, respond to the abuse by speaking against it and protecting those who cannot protect themselves. Women, children, and Men are being battered, controlled, degraded, raped and MURDERED simply because someone needs to have all the power. Is this what mankind was intended to allow? I really don’t believe so and I know together we can give our children something better.

We are all human, We all deserve to be safe within our homes; this is where the fight against abuse begins!!!

(c)Patricia A. McKnight

Author: “My Justice”

http://www.patriciamcknightsjustice.com

http://www.facebook.com/triciagirl62

Her presence is not gone, Susan will be living in the lives of millions by the many books and the Evidentiary Abuse Affidavit; all of them she created to SAVE LIVES OF THOSE SHE DIDN’T KNOW!! This was her spirit, she was a justice seeker for those who had no voice. I will miss her dearly and having just gotten the news of her passing am still in the midst of disbelief. Susan was a huge beacon of light in my life and I know she will be in the lives of those who use her books and her tools designed to help them escape a violent relationship, move on with their lives, stay safe, and if unfortunately necessary; to speak from the grave. Anny your letter to Michelle Obama should earn Susan the recognition she is so deserving of and place her in line for the Nobel Peace Prize. No one has worked as diligently to protect the lives of women and children of domestic/initmate violence with the true devotion as this amazing woman shared. Susan will always be in my spirit pushing me forward and tapping me with her ever determined nature: “Get out of your own way Trish and do what you need to do. Don’t have a pity party and feel sorry and helpless, just live and do what you need to.” This is the Susan I knew, shared phoned calls with, did a couple of radio shows with and truly admired. In loving memory Susan, may God and the Angels keep you forever safe. much sadness over this loss and it will be felt for years to come through women and men of this crime who will benefit greatly from her masterful creations. blessings and sadness, trish

Anny Jacoby, Child Sexual Abuse Prevention Specialist, Personal Safety Consultant & Instructor

Susan Murphy-Milano

On Sunday, October 28, 2012 when many across the country were praying for Susan Murphy-Milano to find peace and to let God bring her home, she passed through the doorway of the mansion in heaven that was prepared for her.

Is she gone from us? No way.

Susan’s work lives on in each and every victim of violence that she figured out how to save, it goes on through each case she offered her expertise that got the attention it needed to make progress, she lives on through each friend who touched her life and to whom she gave so freely. Although her shoes can never be filled, her work will continue.

All of us have a favorite memory, picture and story about Susan. Please feel free to leave your words at Conquering Cancer in the comment section.

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Domestic Violence…..Intimate view of the Red Flags and Warning Signs of an Abuser

Do you know the Red Flags and Warning Signs of an abusive partner?

How do you view your own self-worth and relationships?

This may be triggering for some but it is intended as a upclose and intimate view of Interpersonal Violence and may be the life saving influence for another. Please help pass this information forward!!!

In my life I”ve always seen these violent and controlling relationships as;

“It can’t be any worse than what happened in my home as a child”

I’ve never considered myself as a “Partner” in a relationship. Those who built me had broken down any real sense of value as an individual. I was “trained” in my childhood to be accepting of another’s control and violence against me and became submissive in my adult relationships; dependent for my own existence as a person. The abuses, violence, terror, torture and training to constantly give of myself without any consideration of my own needs, caused me to continue accepting these same acts and disregard any personal value that I thought I deserved.

What this actually did was teach me to accept any and all disregard for me as a human being!!!

The multiples of abusers, controllers of my existence, could manipulate me to fit their mold of the “PERFECT” partner/spouse. No matter how minute their wishes or how grand their desire, it became my own self belief that I should meet or exceed their expectations, despite any dislike I had for their actions.

I WAS THE PERFECT VICTIM!!!

There are many millions like myself, so well-trained to expect and accept any disregard for their own value. This generational training to discard our own dislike of what others do to us and how they break down and mold our spirit to fit their needs, rather than consider our own thoughts and feelings, leaves us destroyed of “SELF” and submissive to meet their wishes.

How does this reflect in your relationship? Do you give others that constant control; disregard your own wishes to meet the expectation of those who say, “I Love You”?

Do they say those words after they’ve spent an hour or five minutes tearing apart or beating down your individual thoughts or feelings?

Do they use the love you feel for them as a tool to make you feel guilt over your own attempts to build your person?

Do they demonstrate blatant disregard of your ideas, dreams, wishes, even if it is as simple as wanting to seek an independent career, education, or complete a goal?

These are their acts as controller of your existence. This is Domestic Violence, Interpersonal Control, Molding of your person and breaking down your spirit to accommodate and meet their expectations of what type of person you should be; putting their value, their ideas, their demands, above your own and taking from you the accomplishments and deserved happiness you were intended to have when your life was created.

I ask you this: “What gives anyone the right to take control over what you should become or accomplish in YOUR LIFE?”

Ask Yourself: “Are you seeing these submissive behaviors and believe the disregard of your value as a human being?”

As a mother, and sometimes out of necessity for financial assistance, I felt there was no possible way I could survive on my own, while trying to raise my children. I believed that accepting their vicious and almost deadly attacks was best because: “How would I keep a roof, clothing, food and other necessities for my children without them?

After all I had been brainwashed to believe I was not able to exist as a person, had no value, unless someone else was giving me that existence. It resulted in twenty years of beatings, control, degradation, financial dependence, and repeated attacks of attempted murder.

The threats and acts to take away the very breath of  life was done with loaded weapons to my head in the middle of the night; attempted drownings in the bathtub; captivity of  keeping me locked inside a 2nd floor apartment for 10 or 12 hours a day; tieing me up with phone cords and locking me in the bedroom for hours until they decided to let me loose; the forceful sexual acts without any regard of my comfort or dislike. They were the controllers of my existence as a person, but wasn’t I a creation of God, just as valuable as any other life on earth?

Rather than escaping their RED FLAG BEHAVIORS, before it became an almost deadly act of brutal violence; I stayed. It was my “training” and – So what if they ordered me out of the car in the cold to pump the gas while they sat warm inside? So what if they locked me inside or took me away from everything and everyone I knew? So what if I was expected to be the “whore” in bed rather than a partner of intimacy? So what if they took my money for their own needs or beat me to give up my career? So what if they decided every moment of every day what I was and wasn’t allowed to do with my time? So what if they took my hopes, my dreams, my goals, and manipulated my choices? SO WHAT?

What I’ve listed above are all Red Flags preceding the violence to come as their demands grew more intense and I could not meet all their expectations; could not read their mind and do their wishes before they spoke them.

It doesn’t matter if you are simply dating someone; if you are a teenager or an adult. When someone you’re with takes away your power of choice, manipulates your thoughts to feel guilt of meeting their wishes rather than your own;

This is the time to leave!!!

The pattern of an abuser isn’t to start off with beating you down physically. They don’t wear a warning sign or a mask of terror. They start off with small steps of calling you at all times of the day or night. Using such subtle manipulations tactics that you give in and allow yourself, out of the perception of love, to follow what they wish and disregard your own gut feelings and thoughts.

If you are reading this and find yourself thinking about your partner’s actions and coming to the conclusion that you see these little subtle acts of manipulation and control; please end the relationship now before your individual spirit, ideas, thoughts, dreams, hopes, goals, are stripped away to meet their own selfish needs and expectations of who you should be and what you should do.

If you are a mother and feel you cannot exist and provide for your children without them; you probably feel this way because of the brainwashing you’ve already been forced to believe.

Know that as a human you are given value of life when you are born. Your own desire to provide for your children will make it possible. It won’t be easy, and you will have to do without many of the luxuries you and they might have now, but think of the consequences of staying where you are.

More than likely the control is growing stronger because you have children. The abuser knows they have stripped away belief in your independent abilities. They have you where they can control what you achieve; making sure that you do not out grow the dependence of life, home, food, basic living necessities they provide.

Take a moment to dream of what YOU truly want in this life and what you wish to influence in your children’s life. Think about your possibilities. Think about how the children are impacted by the growing degradation, forceful control, yelling, screams of mercy coming from their mother; how does this reflect in your children as they hear and watch you cower from your partner?

How will they see what is healthy and normal in their own relationships?

I realize, as being one of those who broke away to raise her children with nothing but the clothes on our backs, how difficult the process can be. There is a lot that is needed and you will need some basic skills to move forward. You need to make a safety plan and escape without harm. You need to seek out assistance with job skills, education, medical and maybe even financial assistance. I know personally that resources of help are low and very difficult to receive, but don’t believe in the brainwashing of others and deplete yourself of personal value, YOU CAN DO THIS!!! IT IS POSSIBLE!!! YOU ARE POSSIBLE!!!

You can call the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence or check out their website: http://www.thehotline.org

PHONE THEM NOW FOR A CONFIDENTIAL 24/7 COUNSELOR TO HELP YOU FIND A WAY TO ESCAPE: 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)

(c)Patricia A. McKnight

Author; “My Justice”

Website: http://www.patriciamcknightsjustice.com

Advocate/Author/Speaker/Examiner/Talk Radio Host/Survivor

Childhood Lost…..Early Warning Signs of Sexual Abuse!!

This post may seem triggering to some, but please read it and pass it forward as someone may find the information to lead to an early rescue for a child!!! Thank You!!

As I’ve shared there are happy memories of my childhood that I like to visit now and again. My dad swinging me in the backyard; playing football with my brother and the other neighborhood boys; catching bumblebees in a jar; watching my dad drag race in that awesome red convertible; my favorite, sleeping snuggled in tight with my grandma that last night I visited with the McKnight family.

These are the moments I reach for when I want to think about the happy times as a child. Like many millions of others, unfortunately these are the ONLY happy childhood memories.

It’s tragic to say that after that cold February night in 1963, just after turning five, the happy memories came to a sudden dead halt. After the first time he touched me, made me gag on his tongue as he kissed me; trapped me on the couch as I waited for Richie’s head to explode when he forced him to stand on his head in the corner, all of it was gone. It simply vanished. The laughter and joy I knew as an innocent child was gone. I didn’t play like a child anymore, although I tried.

This was the moment of death for that little girl, she disappeared, hid away in the dark shadows of corners and the brutal deviant behavior of the “New Dad”, as Mom had introduced him.

When the two of them married just two weeks after that first attack, my smile still showed to the outside world, but inside there was nothing; a hallow shell of a little girl with “Dancing Blue Eyes”. I’ve quoted the title of a poem written by Mary E. Graziano, created along with a fabulous recreation of watercolor art from Michal Madison.

I can remember the changes I felt. The cheerful child was forever gone. Sure, I still tried to act as a child, but I couldn’t find her spirit. No matter how hard I searched the playful little girl was gone. My childhood was lost and he had replaced her spirit with constant anticipation of the next attack.

Hi acts caused me to fear sleeping in my own bed. He made me dread the walk home from school with Richie at my side, which I always treasured. He made me hate going in to take a bath; standing on a chair to do dishes; riding in the car; even if I was outside trying to play there was the constant preoccupation of waiting to hear him call me inside.

‘Don’t get too occupied with trying to play, you will hear him soon.”

My heart and soul wanted to run, play, ride my new bike, wade through the creek and play with the cat tails growing wild on the bank. I wanted to walk home from school and think about dodging the cracks in the sidewalk.

“Step on a crack – break your mother’s back.” I used to always dodge those cracks; carefully making sure not to hurt my dear mother!!!

This new child was playing very differently now. My barbies and ‘Ken” took turns rubbing naked bodies together. The girl I used to play with next door was banned from being around me because her mother caught me playing with the dolls while visiting in their house one day.

I brought the little boy down the street inside our house to play one afternoon when Mom was home and Grandma Moody, Mom’s mom, was over for a visit and getting a home perm in her hair. The little boy and I went into my room, closed the door, I laid on the bed and pulled down my britches. Then I began to show him this “new way of playing”.

I believe we might have been in there for about thirty minutes before Mom yelled out for us to come out of my room. I couldn’t get the button on my britches fastened up so I pulled my shirt down over it and tried to hide it. Mom asked as we walked out of the room, “Why are your pants undone?” I don’t remember what I gave as an answer, but she let me go and sent us out the door.

That wasn’t enough for this new little girl, so I took him in the back of our house where an old mattress had been put out for trash. Right out in the open I went back to teaching this little boy how to “play”. We weren’t out in the country. There was a house in back of ours and on the one side, but I’m guessing no one saw us. It wasn’t long before the little boy got up and went running away, leaving me there with my britches unfastened and wondering why he ran off so fast.

Walter’s constant sexual stimulation of the little girl caused me to continually engage in self stimulation and misguided behavior with my barbies. Instead of dancing around like a princess, chasing a football with my brother, or wading through the creek; I was involved with educating other children on how I was getting touched and how it felt. I was involved with sexual stimulation that I should not have known anything about. It wasn’t long before there weren’t any neighborhood children who were permitted to hang out with me.

This is the type of childhood change that happens when we are forced to engage in early sexual behaviors. We don’t realize how wrong it is and why should I have? There wasn’t anyone who ever told me any different. No one said, “Trecia Ann what are you doing? Where did you learn this kind of stuff?” Maybe it would have made a huge difference in the next twelve years of my life, perhaps changed the outcome of it all.

This is an example of the early silent signs of sexual abuse in our young children. The children who are too young to verbalize what is happening to them.

Our world is full of sexualized media through commercials, internet and even some of the “Disney” movies have these little silent sexual behaviors and signals. One I remember my own children brining to my attention; the word “Sex” appearing in “The Lion King”.

Our children see us hug, kiss, and may even unexpectedly walk into Mom and Dad’s bedroom, but for most purposes our young children do not automatically know these types of sexual behaviors. These acts have to be shown to them; taught to them in some form by some person.

Our young children, ages one to ten, should not know any of these acts or what these acts are like. They should not know what masturbation feels like or seek out ways to get sexual stimulation. They should not act this out with dolls, stuffed animals or engage other children in these behaviors.

If you see your child stimulating themselves or engaging in other such behaviors, BE VERY CONCERNED!!! Someone has exposed your child or taught them about these feelings of stimulation. Children at these early years inadvertently share these acts publicly in some fashion. You will see them acting out these behaviors in some form. Children can’t help it. It is a natural reaction to seek out the pleasurable sensations, and when they are this young they are too innocent to try and hide if from anyone.

When they demonstrate these acts they are giving you the SILENT WARNING OF ABUSE!!! DON’T IGNORE IT!!! First consider your child’s age. Consider what they might have seen in their environment and then ask a few innocent questions such as these below;

“Where did you learn how to do that? Did someone teach you how to play like that? Did you see it on a television show or a movie? Who were you watching the movie with? Did someone else touch you there like that or did they ask you to touch them there?”

These are just a few examples of some questions you can ask without alarming your child with concern. Don’t go into panic, keep the conversation on their level and in an innocent manner. Don’t make them feel as if they are in trouble for acting this way or for doing something such as touching themselves. You don’t want to show concern, because your child will clam up and dodge showing any future behaviors such as this in any form where they can be caught. You will place misguided blame on them, even if you do not intend to do so. A child will automatically absorb blame if they feel you are not happy in some way.

You can provide the much-needed early intervention and rescue your child from future sexual abuse if you simply watch and listen to how your young children play. If you are aware of these early silent warning signs of abuse, then you can better protect your child.

It is the “innocent” play time that can give you the best insight to what they cannot yet verbalize. This is something that all persons who have contact with young children should watch for within families, amongst friends, in neighborhoods, or children you babysit. You can make a big difference in their world if we simply pay attention to what they cannot yet tell us.

(c)Patricia A. McKnight

Advocate/Author/Speaker/Examiner/Talk Radio Host/Survivor

Please be sure to visit the NEW WEBSITE

http://www.patriciamcknightsjustice.com

 

 

DEAR HOUSE….

A fabulous look into the much needed support for VAWA Reauthorization!!!

United Nations Delegate

A poem in response to the Vio­lence Against Women Act (VAWA) re-authorization debate in Congress.

Eigh­teen years ago, this week, VAWA was signed into law. In April 2012, the Sen­ate approved a ver­sion of VAWA that extends ser­vices and pro­tec­tions to bat­tered undoc­u­mented immi­grants and to gay, les­bian, and trans­gen­der vic­tims. In May 2012, the House of Rep­re­sen­ta­tives passed the alter­na­tive Repub­li­can ver­sion, explic­itly avoid­ing any exten­sion of pro­tec­tion to LGBT, Native Amer­i­cans, and undoc­u­mented immi­grant women. Rec­on­cil­i­a­tion of the two ver­sions remains to be seen. His­tor­i­cally, Con­gress has renewed VAWA with­out con­tro­versy, but this debate came at a time when women’s rights, par­tic­u­larly to their bod­ies, are being sys­tem­at­i­cally chal­lenged in the polit­i­cal arena.

Take action and learn more with the National Task Force to End Sex­ual and Domes­tic Vio­lence Against Womenand on Sep­tem­ber 25, par­tic­i­pate in an Orange Day.

Late At Night… dear House
By Kathryn Krastin

The 

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Imagine Publicity – “Holding My Hand Through Hell”

Susan Murphy Milano
virtual book tour

Susan Murphy-Milano’s Fabulous Virtual Book Tour!!!

Please check out her amazing true story in her new novel “Holding My Hand Through Hell” as published by Imagine Publicity and the wonderful Ms. Delilah Jones. This is a wonderful tribute to my very dear friend, a woman who changed my life forever as she guided me through the beginning of my journey.

You will be absolutely enthralled by Susan’s story, a cop’s daughter during a time when NO CASES OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE WERE REPORTED OR HANDLED, EVEN RECOGNIZED FOR WHAT THEY WERE. This is the grass-roots of what built Susan to be the determined fighter of justice that she became. It is a true honor to share with all of you the wonderful tribute to an incredible woman,

Ms. Susan Murphy Milano

Thank you for all the guidance and protection you have given to millions of men and women, victims of Intimate Partner Violence!!!

Susan you will be greatly missed but always remembered!!

http://imaginepublicity.com/2012/10/01/holding-my-hand-through-hell-virtual-book-tour/

Patricia A. McKnight

http://patriciamcknightsjustice.com

http://www.facebook.com/triciagirl62

http://www.examiner.com/article/evidentiary-abuse-affidavit-meets-illinois-hearsay-law?cid=PROD-redesign-right-next

Author/Advocate/Speaker/Writer/Radio Host/Survivor

Survivors Speak: National Domestic Violence Awareness Month Special With Susan Murphy Milano

Survivors Speak: National Domestic Violence Awareness Month Special With Susan Murphy Milano.