Building Butterfly Dreams …….

What a beautiful journey this has been!!!

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Friends, I am very excited about the upcoming year with all I’ve been trying to put together. The dreams of truly being able to provide some healing, coping, understanding, and other organization/advocate strategies is finally coming to reality!!! This is a huge step forward as I’m one of those many survivors whose greatest challenge is believing in myself.

More importantly is those who have stood with me, empowered me, believed in the voice hiding within.

First to thank one of the kindest souls I’ve had the pleasure of building a sincere friendship, Mr. Peter Thomas Senese. As many of you know, he is a highly dedicated advocate for the protection of all children, more focused on International Parental Abduction. He is the Founder of I CARE Foundation. This foundation has recently brought a huge heightened awareness concerning this growing epidemic. Because of the hard work this foundation has put forth, our law makers are putting forth their efforts to close the loopholes in our system, which have played a role in this continued escalation of abductions. Mr. Senese is also a Best Selling Geo-Political Author!!! If you haven’t read his great thrillers, which open the door to the intensity of our imaginations, then in my opinion you are missing out on some really great stuff. It is the holiday season, and as a friend and great supporter of Peter and the I CARE Foundation; I’d like to encourage you to check out his books. He uses the profits from ‘Chasing the Cyclone’ to provide funding for the foundation and is putting their focus on not only rescues of children, but also changing the laws to prevent and hopefully end the continued increase of this crime.

It is an abusive action towards a child to abduct them, simply steal them away; hiding them from any contact with what has been their security and their world!!! Imagine if you will, the impact this would have on a young child. Do you have a 5 or 10 year old child who depends on his/her world to be safe, happy, loving? Imagine if suddenly they were stolen away from all of this; how would this impact their young developing minds and emotions? So, to me this man has developed incredible measures of success against this abuse; perhaps you will check out his books and support a great cause, while sending out a fabulous gift!!! You will see the full interview I did with Peter, which was then published in the Examiner, by following this link, http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com/parentalabduction

‘Peter, thank you for the fabulous gift of your support; hearing my voice and empowering me to use it in the best way possible for others. You have been a true blessing in my life’.

The next person who has been such a huge influence on my world is the amazing friendship built with Michal Madison. If you don’t know her then I encourage you to please check out her work. This beautiful creation of a person, uses her fabulous gift to allow the world to see the inner scars of abuse in her masterful creation of Watercolor Art!!! Like me Michal lived in a world filled with extreme abuses from both parents. Her world was darkened by the acts of those who should have made her world shine, allowing her shining spirit to glow in all its beauty. Michal Madison, Watercolor Artist; has created some of the most beautiful works of art through the eyes of this darkness. She has given to me the bond of friendship, the shoulder to cry on, the supporter of dreams. Michal’s art is also another great source of beautiful gifts to those you love. Her work is not just from the darkness within, but also the that great magic and laughing spirit of all children. Hopefully, you will view some of her excellent talent and see how you can help provide rescue and resources to children who’ve been harmed. Michal supports the efforts of Childhelp.org and other great advocacy programs.

‘Forever thankful my friend, Here’s to the future of Butterfly Dreams’!!

This is also the time I’d like to thank more of those who’ve made a huge impact on what I’m moving forward with building in 2013; Dreamcatchers for Abused Children, Stacy Ascencio-Sutphen, Tammy Fox, Susan Murpy-Milano, Anny Jacoby, Debra Mize, Violence Prevention Center of Southwestern Illinois, Ms. Linda Walcher, Dr. Benda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green, Mr. Bill Murray, Jan Frayne, Janice Hendricks, Annie O’Sullivan, Nell Cole, Brett Scudder, Sherna Alexander, Viga Boland, Mary E. Graziano, Michael Skinner, and many other thousands of voices that have reached out in a simple comment, post, re-tweet, share of any of my information with others. All of you have been an influence on where I am today and where I look forward to going in the future.

‘A very sincere thank you to all of you who have connected in some way. You have all made a difference; influenced my life to move forward in some way. For that you have empowered this dream to become a reality. Thank you’!!

So it is with great pleasure I can say that I’ve made it, I’m where I am supposed to be. There is a purpose for all that has been, the bad has been turned into good, which has created the light leading me onward. I hope all of you will continue to walk with me so that the children of tomorrow will believe; we have put forth our greatest fighting forces to change their world and give them something better.

It’s been shared in many reviews that ‘My Justice’ has impacted the lives of all who’ve read it. They’ve been inspired to speak up, seek help, get involved. They’ve had their emotions and moral values challenged and outraged. They’ve felt in their hearts the need to become fierce protectors; watchers for children with an intense vigilance. They have seen and felt the inner depths of a silent child, woman, survivor who has spent her life waiting for someone to see into her world.

Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery is here to reach out and provide a support system, understanding, awareness, information, and other healing resources for anyone who has been touched by the acts of Relationship Violence, Child Abuse, Parental Abduction; even for those who suffer the added trauma of the emotional wounds from family abandonment and the many lasting effects of abuse and/or violence. We are building a new family with those who are much like ourselves in some way. We are becoming a new nation, a new generation creating a stand against the acts passed down through centuries of mankind’s existence.

I believe we all have faith in a greater power, which has influenced our lives. It is my belief that Greater Power, Creator Above; will bring those good graces to touch this new adventure; allowing me to change the impact of these horrific acts and the cycle that has touched the world of my own family. I also believe in ‘word of mouth support’ for any service or item you have to share with others. It is my faith in this that gives hope to my ability, to have ‘My Justice’ shared across the globe along with Butterfly Dreams to provide all with a grasp of hope in their world.

Here’s to the strength of our bonds and the best for our futures!!!

Believe in the magic of your dreams and allow your wings to carry you onward.

Sincerely,

Patricia A. McKnight                   Bookcvr1

Advocate/Author/Speaker/Talk Radio Producer & Host/Survivor

Founder: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery

Founder: Survivors World online support group

Creator: Generation No More

My Justice’

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Published by @Trecia_Ann

Recently, Facebook locked and removed my decade long creation of work and public profile, which focused my work as an advocate, speaker, mentor, and creator of more than a few programs used throughout Illinois, but also shared nationally and some have reached international platforms. So.... let's start fresh and see where it goes! Please see the writings on this blog dating back into 2011, created after the publication of 'My Justice'. There are two specifically, which have been tagged and shared by many....."Judging Eyes" and "Triggers; what they are and how to handle them" I am a survivor of over thirty years trapped inside the silence and brutality of Family Facilitated Violence, Torture, and Child Sex Trafficking. In Feb. 2011, I chose to publish the secrets and the horrors endured; the many levels of destruction and decay which the community around me witnessed, ignored, condemned and blamed regardless of the injuries and tortures endured. It all became the learned patterns of self-hatred and tolerance which was a huge factor in my adult life. Have you endured childhood harm, or endured terroristic types of abuses? Did you feel unworthy of life, breathing, love or respect? Did you feel as if no one ever really saw you, heard you, or seemed to care about the silent cruelties of your existence? It wasn't until I honestly began a strong focus on healing myself, which took years of researching credible data and published research surrounding the lasting effects of abuse, violence, sexual harm, and human trafficking that I began to understand who I was and why there were many traits and tragedies that influenced my adult choices, relationships, the chaos deep in my soul and the behaviors used to survive. It seemed to control everything inside me and it was filled with pain, and tragedy. The research became my rebuilding journey and my road to advocacy, creating legislative changes, sitting as an active member and providing testimony in the creation of area task force operations, victim/survivor services, trauma informed awareness for law enforcement, educators, social services, healthcare and community providers. I began that research of understanding myself in 2008, wrote the memoir "My Justice' in 2010, began working to change statutes in my home state in 2013, became a Certified DV Advocate and Panel Member of DV Offender Education Program in 2015, which then initiated a decade long career as a trusted, confidential advocate, and a highly skilled and knowledgeable speaker/educator on the topic of Assessment, Family/Survivor Rebuilding, Trauma Informed Care & Response, with the primary focus on family/relationship acts of terroristic abuses and/or human trafficking. Beginning in January 2010 there have been developed programs and connected resources for men, women, children, and families who endured these same types of tragedies. Unfortunately, our human society still has barriers to seek help or speak openly about these types of tragedies, especially if it happened in our homes and families. The laws to protect from such harms were enacted for children in 1963, as an amendment to the Social Security Act. Domestic Violence was not a topic until 1995, when then Senator Joe Biden introduced the Violence Against Women Act, which has since been adapted to provide shelters, counseling, protection orders, and rebuilding services for ALL persons regardless of gender or identity. Although slavery was brought to an end by the historical act of President Abraham Lincoln, we unfortunately have millions of human beings still being traded, sold, controlled and trapped in a hellish evil, which often begins by a parent or intimate partner. Legislation didn't arise regarding the term 'Human Trafficking' until the turn of the new millennium. Protection for victims of human trafficking was signed into law as the 'Trafficking In Persons Act of 2000', which with modern day social media it quickly became a new hot-topic point, which then sparked the creation of Trauma Informed Care, Rebuilding & Trauma Therapy, and thus adult survivors began speaking out about the dark terrifying reality of Child Sex Trafficking. Today many use the term, Modern Day Slavery, and we have multi-faceted task force operations and rescue resources working around the globe to end this new form of human slavery. We also have a few hundred thousand or more who are adult survivors of histories involving Parental Child Sex Trafficking. In one recent study from 2018, they found 85% of these victims were trafficked by parents in trade for drugs, family needs, or basic human survival. As I look back on the career that grew from my own personal need to understand the chaos in my head, the constant failed relationships and almost murderous acts committed against me; as I deal with increasing health problems that includes multiples of head and spinal cord traumas; the most important goal for me from day one of this extremely personal experience; the healing and rebuilding of my own children and grandchildren who were all continued generational victims of the trauma influenced behaviors and choices that resulted from the destruction enforced by my mother and stepfather many decades ago. The little girl, 'Trecia Ann', she survived pure evil as an entire community witnessed, shamed, blamed, and dismissed the visible decay and rot, stench and filth covered, battered and intoxicated body of a young girl who was publicly exploited and shared in the bars of that small town, in her home with boys she attended school with and adult men from the local coalmine. It was as if they all got a thrill from watching her respond to the ring of that little brass bell. They laughed, molested, raped, and purchased for a few bucks or a few beers the sexual use of that young girl right in full public view! Her mother held the power to stop it all, but rather enjoyed having a 'slave' to cook, clean, care for the family as well as entertain the sadistic alcoholic man she chose to marry. Today, I'm so honored and proud to have that little girl's spirit with me. It is through the use of my lived experience, along with a decade of research, and at least five certifications in prevention, response, and trauma; I've assisted a few hundred survivors through the multilevel process of rebuilding and reclaiming their voice, their safety, their freedom! I've trained law enforcement, healthcare, childrens service investigators, our school educators, and co-presented in trainings with some outstanding experts in the field. For the many I've assisted or empowered, they continue becoming thriving survivors, advocates, authors, speakers, and most important of all; they are healing their children and grandchildren! It is a truly beautiful experience and I am so amazed to have been a spark, a resource, or a friend in their life reclaiming freedom. The adult children of generations past have broken through the glass ceiling and finally there is a hint of change in the world. "A lifetime filled with daily torture, tragedy, and pain creates someone completely different than we should have been. We feel that person inside, but our lives are altered by the emotional and physical suffering. We cover it up and hide it deep inside through substance abuse, which falsely helps us believe we are doing fine. The extreme physical and emotional injuries leave our mental and physical selves terribly impacted. Thankfully there is more information and resources of help available today for all types of adverse or traumatic experiences. We have specialized therapeutic help and healthcare professionals developing new ways to identify and assist persons harmed or at risk of harm. We have so much more to do, so please help by having casual open conversations with your friends, family, coworkers, leaders, and especially our kids. Teach them early how to avoid both online and in person harms. Encourage adults and kids both to use the BDA Buddy Skills 2.0, which you will find through my list of assessments and prevention strategies. "My Justice' was written through my own beginning of acknowledging and releasing the personal destruction of the girl once known as 'Trecia Ann'. It is not an easy read, but it has opened many eyes about the reality of evil that occurs inside our homes, against those too small to protect themselves or understand what's happening. It was published to release the thick layers of trauma, sex trafficking, and disfiguring neglect. It is the voice of the enslaved child who existed only to answer the ring of 'his' bell, and the enforced burden to keep my own private terrorist alive. 'My Justice' is NOT SUGGESTED FOR ANYONE UNDER 16 years of age. It discusses the permanently wounding life and the cycle of destruction that held me in tolerating ridicule, control, and violence in my adult relationships. This truth was published to inspire others to take an in-depth look at their life and behaviors as a result of their past, in hopes they too will better understand their suffering today, the continued relationships with the parents and family who inflicted those harms, and finally breaking free from that pain so they can reclaim their voice and their true sense of freedom! We always have the opportunity to learn that we are worthy, capable, incredibly strong, compassionate, and filled with endless possibilities. It is a choice. It is a conscious decision to dig into our trauma, take ownership of our own failures, the harm our choices have caused, and the work we need to do to change it and succeed for ourselves and our families. It is such an honor to have 'My Justice' used at the collegiate level for psychology classes, upcoming therapists, and educators. Today my life is very blessed. I'm finally safe, feel truly loved, finally feeling the magic of life! Always choose to see your star and how it shines on others in your journey. My greatest power only began to show when I first made the choice to end the violent relationships and behaviors around my children; to give them something better, something SAFE!! In choosing to share my own story, I've also gone the serious extra step to educate myself through years of research, attending training opportunities, and collaborating with other advocate resources focused in human resilience and healing from abuse, sexual harm, and sex trafficking. Today there are experts digging deep to recreate help and healing. I've chosen to use my past as a way to inspire a greater good and; hopefully, somehow change the cycle of tragedy in our homes so that we empower our kids to live a more positive path. The best education we can give is healing our survivors of traumatic experiences so we understand what they felt then and what they wish they would have had available; those who could have and should have said something. We can change things for our life today, but best of all in healing our wounds, we give communities a supportive working strategy in assisting the people in our lives. One step at a time, one caring soul at a time, we can give them a path to changing our human society as a whole. This is a tell-all, which was written in the midst of my third nervous breakdown as I struggled to put all my distorted pieces back together, and help my children understand how the violence I tolerated against me invaded their well-being. My children have always been my world, but my behaviors, lack of healthy parenting and life skills, and an inability to remain stable have caused another generation of suffering for my grandchildren. This is a very difficult thing to watch and the continued tragedies that seem to keep affecting the choices in my family. Writing this book was only the beginning of trying to release all that has haunted me for so many years. I have finally removed his thick, cruel, coal-stained hand which trapped me in fear for decades. Those hands and his evil, her housemaid and caregiver; created a slave, and that slave submitted to horrific and brutal attacks but always felt it was her burden to bear. I lived with that hand holding me down, continually terrorizing and silencing, stealing my voice to protect their pure evil. Throughout decades the dysfunction caused by the chaos inside my head would affect every relationship, my children, and cast a shadow of darkness on everything good in my life. Living in the true spirit of freedom, I have now become a strong advocate against the life cycle of human destruction. If we want to control our life and achievements today, then we cannot live stuck in the tragedy of hardships and pain. Life is meant to be lived, to be enjoyed, to see what you can do and what you can achieve, to find out what is important to you. We all become adults. We all have a burden to bear. Stand up and keep moving, keep living, keep dreaming. You have two choices in recreating and rebuilding yourself. Do you stay stuck in the dark shadows of your past? Do you dig deep and find that spirit that kept you alive so that you can become the proud, strong, capable, resilient, kind human being? Which do you choose and how will that choice affect your children and theirs? We can be supportive, and provide resources and suggest help so that families suffering from addiction or past trauma can find a recovery balance to rebuild their family into a more positive life pattern. We will recover, we will rebuild, we will conquer the pains of yesterday to live in the true sense of life, freedom, and safety today. Patricia 'Trish' McKnight Author: 'My Justice' Fndr/CEO: Butterfly Dreams Alliance, NFP Mentor/Advocate/Speaker/Survivor

4 thoughts on “Building Butterfly Dreams …….

  1. Trish, thank you for all the work you have done for us. Without you there would be a void, You have worked so very hard in coming forward, sharing with all of us here, that dreams can come true, all we have to do is believe. You have made it to this point in your life, and are able to reach out to so many lost souls who struggle with their own demons, me included. I thank you so much for this, and am so very honoured to be able to call you my friend..Thank you Trish, you mean so much to me, and to others and have helped me so much to reach the place where I am now at with my self..You are an inspiration to me and to the many others out there who would otherwise have no hope..God Bless You Trish..Love you , butterfly hugs to you my friend ♥

    1. Mary, it is by falling apart and seeing all that lies inside we are able to put our pieces together and build on what is good in us. Be blessed my friend and thank you for all you inspire in others. Blessings & hugs ~trish

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