Survivor finally feels FREEDOM

 

Victim Impact Statement

St. Clair County Courthouse

Wed, July 10th, 6pm

Court Ordered Offender Program

Domestic Violence or Abuse Charges

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Survivor/Author/Advocate/Founder: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery

Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight – ‘My Justice’

Recently I was given an opportunity, which most Survivors like myself, have not had a chance or as of yet been given the honor;

I gave a Victim Impact Statement!!

Now, don’t get confused, it was not given for my specific offenders, but it made a huge impact on the Offenders and hopefully St. Clair County, Illinois; Prosecuting Attorney, Liz Nelson. The Legal Advocacy Dept, VPCSWI.org, Lisa Chilton Director and Ms. Tina Kempworth, Director of Counseling @VPCSWI are the ones to thank for this tremendous event.

The statement given, other than a few little changes due to the direction of the presentation itself, can be viewed through this link – http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com/patricia_and_speaking.html

Giving this speech was an intense feeling of #FREEDOM!! I was there, in the very same courthouse, which would have given me justice and protection back then. I stood there in front of the Prosecuting Attorney, Legal Advocacy Dept, Offenders, and Survivors: ‘I am here as once a victim, but today a VICTOR!!

If you are not aware, my life was filled with one vicious attack after another for thirty two years beginning at age 5 when my mother gave me as property to the devil himself!!!

‘Why did everyone around me, all who new me;

Why didn’t someone help me?

All we can say is ‘Society itself let me down’. An entire community turned away from what they witnessed, took part in, or turned away from; but we didn’t have enforcement of the system we do today. We cannot loose the momentum that is pushing forward to stop these heinous crimes today. We must all demand that our lawmakers, politicians who have the authority to enforce stricter punishments and speak publicly against these actions will hopefully do so starting today!!!

No one should know this intense fear, especially within their very own homes!!!

I, along with millions of others like me, ask all in society: ‘Please help end the torture, molestations, rape, captivity, and terror that has grown within our families, our relationships; inside our homes. Help be a SAFE person for another. Please learn the Silent Signs to spot a victim in need.

Step up and Make It Count!!

Read the TRUTH about our millions of reports submitted for crimes of Child Maltreatment. Sadly, most have them have been dismissed without even an investigation. This should never happen. We have silenced 2.3 Million Child Victims by disregarding the reports and ignoring the deep personal violation of that child. How is it possible for us to do this today?

Our homes should provide us with SAFETY from the dangerous elements of the world, instead they have become a daily nightmare of vicious attacks by those who are supposed to love us, guide us, comfort us.

Thankfully we are part of the new generation, the VERY FIRST GENERATION to finally break the silence enforced throughout our forming years. We are Generation No More; speaking the truth of mankind’s most darkest evils.

Stop the torture within our homes!!

Learn how to rise above their actions,

Heal yourself to become the magic you are,

Become a stronger parent who can guide while teaching respect, love, and kindness.

One at a time we are breaking down the walls of silence!!

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Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight

Author/Advocate/Speaker/Talk Radio Prod & Host/Survivor

Founder: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery

Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio

Contact: tricia.mcknight@hotmail.com

Speaking/Writing/Special Interviews on our Talk Radio Programs!!!

Published by @ButterflyTrish

I am a survivor of over thirty years trapped inside the silence and brutality of Family Crimes, Child Sex Trafficking, and a life lived pattern of tolerance for over 30 years in almost murderous relationships. In Feb. 2011 I chose to publish the truth about what happened in our home, the community around me, and the learned patterns of self-hatred and tolerance which became such a huge factor in my life. My life today was built through publishing 'My Justice'. I never would felt worthy of life, breathing, love & respect with first healing myself. There were many things the traits and tragedies that influenced my life seemed to control everything inside me and it was nothing but sadness and fake emotions. Only by facing the horrors I went through, the choices I made as a woman & mother, then relating to the greatest guilt I have; how the trauma behavior has affected my children's lives. It's my hope to help others get through their battles, regardless of the type of trauma because when we hurt our lives are forever changed. This graphic, violent memoir is NOT SUGGESTED FOR ANYONE UNDER 14 years of age. It discusses the permanently wounding life and the cycle of destruction that held me in expecting/tolerating ridicule and violence in my adult relationships. This truth was published to inspire others to take an in-depth look at their life and behaviors as a result of their past. Connect the dots of your rebuilding in understanding the pattern of adult choices in coping addictions, parenting, and partners; even affecting our careers and self-sustainable life. I'm so honored to have 'My Justice' used at the collegiate level for psychology classes, upcoming therapists and educators. Today my life is very blessed. I'm finally safe, finally truly loved, finally feeling the magic of what life is supposed to be like. My greatest power only began to show when I first made the choice to end the violent relationships and behaviors around my children; to give them something better, something SAFE!! In choosing to share my own story, I've also gone that serious extra step to educate myself through years of research, attending training opportunity, and collaborating with other advocate resources, abuse, sexual harm, and the experts digging deep to recreate help and healing. I've chosen to use my past as a way to inspire a greater good; hopefully somehow change the cycle of tragedy in our homes so that we empower our kids to live a more positive path. The best education we can give, is a survivor of traumatic experiences who can use what they felt then and what they wish they would have had available; those who could have and should have said something. We can change things for our life today, but best of all in healing our wounds, we give communities a supportive working strategy in assisting the people in our lives. One step at a time, one caring soul at a time, we can give them a path to changing our human society as a whole. This is a tell all, which was written in the midst of my third nervous breakdown as I struggled to put all my distorted pieces back together, help my children understand how the violence I tolerated against me invaded their emotional well-being. My children have always been my world, but my behaviors, lack of healthy parenting and life skills, and an inability to remain stable has caused another generation of suffering for my grandchildren. This is a very difficult thing to watch and the continued tragedies that seem to keep affecting the choices in my family. Writing this book was only the beginning of trying to release all that has haunted me for so many years. I have finally removed his thick, cruel, coal stained hand which trapped me in fear for decades. Those hands and his evil, her housemaid and caregiver; they created a slave and that slave submitted to horrific and brutal attacks but always felt it was her burden to bare. I lived with that hand holding me down to terrorize and steal away my voice, holding me captive in the dysfunction of the aftermath and casting a shadow of darkness on everything good in my life. Living in the true spirit of freedom, I have now become a strong advocate against the life cycle of human destruction. We cannot live stuck in the tragedy of hardships and pain. Life is meant to be lived, to be enjoyed, to see what you can do and what you can achieve, to find out what is important to you. We all become adults. We all have a burden to bare. Stand up and keep moving, keep living, keep dreaming. You have two choices in recreating and rebuilding yourself. Do you stay stuck in the dark shadows of your past? Do you dig deep and find that spirit that kept you alive so that you could become the proud, strong, capable, resilient, kind human being ? Which do you choose and how will that choice affect your children and theirs? We can be supportive, provide resources and suggestions for help so that families suffering with addiction or past trauma themselves can find a recovery balance to rebuild their family in a more positive life pattern. We will recover, we will rebuild, we will conquer the pains of yesterday to live in the true sense of life, freedom and safety today. Patricia 'Trish' McKnight Author: 'My Justice' Fndr/CEO: Butterfly Dreams Alliance, NFP Mentor/Advocate/Speaker/Survivor

8 thoughts on “Survivor finally feels FREEDOM

  1. Trish, your freedom gives freedom to so many other survivors to finally speak their truths too. This is how we will finally start the landslide to stop child abuse and domestic violence, with first one survivor speaking out and then more and more until we can’t be stopped and someone has to pay attention. Thank you Trish for all that you do, my dear friend.

    1. Patricia, indeed 🙂 It was an amazing feeling to have this opportunity, such an empowering evening and I know it left a deep impression on at least some of the offenders in attendance. I hope we all continue moving forward. Each time one speaks out we can empower another and then we can make a difference in our children’s lives today, ending the nightmares that exist within our homes!!! love ya, trish 🙂

  2. You have finally been set free Trish, and by doing that, and by speaking in front of the judges and everyone else that was at that courthouse, you have hopefully now given others their own voice, to fight back and speak up for themselves from their own pasts that haunt them still. It’ is not often that you find someone with a strong voice who is able to finally step up to the plate and tell what should have been told all those years ago. To set others free. One voice, then two, and so on. We must break this silence, once and for all. Together more and more will come forward, united together so that finally someone will listen to what needs to be said and done. No child or adult should have to be silent any longer. You are an inspiration to many, and for that we thank you Trish, you have made a huge difference…am proud to call you my friend.

    1. Mary, it is so very true. One survivor speaking out can empower another and then we can direct the focus where it needs to be, protecting today’s children. We cannot change what happened, we can’t go back in time, but hopefully we can change their future. Much love always, trish 🙂 We did this together girl, all of you were with me!!!

    1. Lisa, thank you so very much girl. Indeed we must all get involved. Victims caught in this nightmare of terror have no voice, their voice is being held captive by their abuser. If we don’t speak up to help them and encourage others to support them, then we continue on through another generation of teaching silence and acceptance. This cannot happen!!! Cheers & thank you, trish 🙂

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