Butterfly Dreams Needs Your Help

Dear friends;                               

Last November, ‘Trish’ McKnight & Michal Madison began developing their creation of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Broadcasting. This began as a sincere friendship built from the lives of two very different, yet very similar, child abuse & domestic violence survivors. While Michal & Trish came from two very different families; Michal’s the perfect Christian family, prominent within the community and viewed as a wonderful family unit by everyone who knew them, Trish’s family was known by everyone as dysfunctional with a feared stepfather and a mother who played herself as a woman trapped in his ugliness with three children. However, if you know Trish’s history and what she shares so much about today, she carried & waved every red flag she could possibly bare as to the warning signs of something much darker on the inside of her home.

Michal & Trish chose to provide a way to touch a few lives and give a path of hope & healing support throughout many arenas, so that they could better assist the victims & survivors who were reaching out to them. In building the website & talk radio programs it is our team’s true wish to provide trusted enlightenment & empowerment for communities, families, victims & survivors to provide a full list of resources to better aide the rescue & recovery within your own neighborhoods.

Well Butterfly Dreams has far exceeded our expectations of what we had even dreamed possible. There have been at least a hundred or more who have been helped by the one on one consultations and advice from Trish’s learned knowledge, which she has spent the last Five Years trying to become her own self studied expert in providing the very best support and guidance of developing safety plans, watching our for our kids, helping victims & others within our community, dealing with P.T.S.D., the battles of depression, and challenging ourselves to rise above the pain of the crimes to see a chance at life & happiness on the other side. Michal is now a trusted Art Therapy consultant who volunteers her time specifically with children who have been or are being harmed, so that they can break out of the shell of emotions and begin to laugh, shine, and be a child again. There have been many hundreds who have used and shared our website as a resource of help and suggested it out to those in their circles. Our fast growing talk radio programs have reached over 33,000 listens in only the past 10 months.

Thankfully, many of you have sent us over your testimonials and posted them out on various groups and we sincerely appreciate all of the incredible support & friendship that has been extended our way. Now we have decided to apply for the official nonprofit status 501c3 so that we can become a recognized ETHICAL, TRUSTED, & TRANSPARENT RESOURCE for the many who are suffering today.

WE NEED YOUR HELP!!!

Our original promised funding for the growth which was promised turned out to be a false hope. We are now left with the only option of reaching our for your assistance, and this is not something we like to ask of you, but in order to maintain what we are already doing & grow with resources, connections, supporters, and new programs to help us reach further out into; we truly have no choice. If you would like to help us achieve this goal – PLEASE – visit our website where you will find the official Paypal ‘DONATE’ option. Any amount you donate, even a single one dollar, is sincerely appreciated. Below you will find a full list of where we will be using any and all donations.

Here is a list of what you can expect to see from your assistance in donations:

1) Official Application & Development of Non-Profit 501©3 Status

2) Help us to provide the continued efforts of one on one consultations

3) Dr. Brenda to provide discounted or no-cost counseling services to those who cannot otherwise afford or get to resources.

4) Provide supplies for Michal Madison to continue Art Therapy Services for children affected by abuse and/or violence

5) Development of Survivors World Community Support Group beginning in Trish’s home location of Breese, Illinois

6) Continued Prime Time Radio Broadcast community outreach educational & enlightenment self help programs

7) Provide special printing for Training & Support Materials used in speaking/training services or seminars

8) Provide continued growth and development for the website of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery

9) Aid in funding for special reports & surveys to provide further similarities in abuse and/or violence survivors, looking into the documented publications of the lifelong issues of emotional & physical health impacts from these types of trauma

10) Help us to continue our work in providing and building resources around the world to allow everyone to reclaim their self worth, live their dreams, and finally live free from the life altering impacts of these crimes, as well as aide in the emergency provision of services to victims, survivors, & families dealing with some form of past or present abuse or violence today.

Our Board of Directors are the very best in their field of Children & Youth Services, Legal Professionals, Mental Health & Family Therapy Services. You can rest assured of our constant and complete transparent provision of services with your much appreciated donations.

Founder/CEO: Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight

Co-Founder/COO: Michal Madison

Chairman of the Board of Directors: Ms. Dana Hoffman – Professional Legal Researcher, Children’s Youth Services

2nd Chair – Honorable Judge Mary Elizabeth Bullock – PENDING ACCEPTANCE

Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green – Owner/CEO, Afterglow Counseling, Mediation & Family Therapy Services; Mental Health/Family Therapy Educator

Mr. Robert Tschannen – Treasury Officer

Mr. Brett Sanders – Technology/Website Officer

Advisory Member – Ms. Lynn Tolson – Author/Advocate/Survivor; Project for T.E.A.R.S.

Advisory Member – Ms. Barbara Ochoa – Founder/CEO: PlunaFoundation, Help4Guys

Please visit Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery for Mission Statement, Testimonials, Code of Ethics Policy; Conflict of Interest Policy; Release of Liability Statement

Our family of Butterfly Angels who assist with supporting, sharing, and are support members in our live radio chatrooms:

Dawna Larsen – Admin Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United

Debbie Naylor Cox – Admin. Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United

Mary E. Graziano – Admin Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United

Patricia Caldwell Singleton – Admin Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United

**Abuse Survivors & Victims United is a Facebook Online Support Group, please contact one of these admin directors for guidelines and interest at becoming a member.**

From ‘Trish’, Michal, Dr. Brenda, and all the Board Members of Butterfly Dreams we sincerely appreciate all of our wonderful family & friends, supporters & partners in ending the generational impact of what has already become mankind’s worst travesty, the pain inflicted on our partners, spouses, and especially our children. Thank you!!

 

A very special speaking engagement….

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Prosecuting Attorneys Association of Michigan

Victims Rights Annual Conference

Sept. 19th, 2013

It is with a very sincere thank you and a deep appreciation that I share….

On September 19th, I was given the very distinct honor to be invited to give a two hour presentation and share my survivor story at the Victims Rights Annual Conference, sponsored by the Prosecuting Attorney’s Association of Michigan State. In attendance were about 100 Advocates from across their great state who were there for the two and a half day conference. I was given the very special gift to present at the end of day two.

Along with sharing the horrific details of my story, there is also a Power Point presentation I developed to help advocates, community leaders, legal & healthcare professionals. This presentation gives information on detecting a victim of Child Abuse or Family/Relationship Violence, which is NOT commonly shared through other informational resources. These are specifics shared from a survivor’s point of view and the many RED FLAGS & WARNING SIGNS you may often dismiss, especially within your circle of family & friends. (Please check the website pages of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery; Child Abuse & Family Violence for the specifics on these warning signs, thank you)

It was such a huge opportunity to speak at the P.A.A.M. Conference and I hope other associations will reach out to arrange a presentation for their next event or conference. It is well known resources are being cut across the country and it is through these Survivor Presentations that all of us become more aware of how to better assist with detection, rescue, rebuilding, and recovery for families, victims and survivors today.

A couple hours of absorbed knowledge can continue the mission of connecting hearts & holding hands around the world, so that all beings, (Men, Women, & Children) are able to reclaim their value, soar into their dreams; developing the skills to Live Strong & Fly Free.

Thank you Ms. Angela Tomasko & Ms. Kirstyne Parker for reaching out and flying me in for this very special opportunity!!!

On behalf of myself, Michal Madison, Dr. Brenda Joyce Markert-Green, and the developing board members of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery; we all thank you and hope you will contact ‘Trish’ or another member of our unique team for your next upcoming event.

To arrange a training or speaking presentation please contact:

via email; butterflydreams@charter.net or p.mcknight@charter.net

Feel free also to give us a call & leave a message @ 618-304-7438; we will certainly follow up with you or your organization.

We invite everyone to check out the website where we share much of this special information at http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com

You can also listen in to our many community outreach talk radio broadcasts by visiting http://www.blogtalkradio.com/butterflydreamsabuserecovery

Thank you one and all for supporting our continued efforts & growth in this enlightenment, empowerment, and educational mission of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery. May we all find the power to Live Strong & Fly Free!!!

Sincerely,

Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight

Author: My Justice

Advocate/Speaker/Consultant/Trainer/Radio Host/Survivor

Founder/CEO – Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Broadcasting

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Paperback – Ebook – Kindle & Nook Publications

**Artwork Designs for Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery are creations by;

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Devils of my childhood no longer protected

Have you ever thought about going public with the names of your abusers? Have you thought about finally holding them accountable for what they did and what you were forced to endure?

This has been heavy on my mind for quite some time. I’ve shared the horrific details, which have been compared by incredible people, to the horrible life of Mr. Dave Pelzer, New York Times Best Seller – ‘A Child Called – It’.

So I think to myself many times over what else is there for me to share, what else do I have to work through to get this finally released from my soul so that I can live free from all the ugly secrets? There is only one secret left which plagues me constantly, the names of those two people who were responsible for my well being, nurturing, teaching me to become a capable young adult and healthy mother for my own children.

THESE TWO PEOPLE WERE EVIL NOT LOVING PARENTS AS THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN!!!

Why should their identities be protected? Why did I change their names when I published ‘My Justice’? Why did I call it a ‘novel’ rather than the truth of what it actually is, an AUTOBIOGRAPHY? It is every possible memory I have held deep inside for years, the memories that trapped me in a world of darkness.

Well today, after talking with one absolutely strong and amazing justice fighter, who has given me her blessing as a friend, an angel who has come into my life; one person I have followed for almost a year now on Linkedin but never dreamed would ever have any interest in my story, the amazing Ms. Dana Hoffman!!! Who is a lucky girl today to have this voice in my corner?

OK, first things first….

Why did I publish ‘My Justice’ and list it as a novel? When I published this horrific story of my life, I made it clear on the back cover; ‘this is the true story of one woman’s fight for survival. It has been created from her memories & nightmares.’

To me at the time this went into publication, Feb 2011, I had a major problem with seeing the word ‘AUTOBIOGRAPHY’ as a conceded comment about myself. Somehow when I looked at that particular word it terrified me, part of this was also wrapped up in DISSOCIATION. If I called it a ‘novel’ I didn’t have to feel connected to all of the horrifying evils of abuse & torture as written out from the memories & nightmares, the self destruction of what I endured. Also, what made my story any different from what so many others have endured? What made me so special that I wrote out my journey of hell and the vicious maltreatment of various levels of abuses inflicted?

If you are not aware, it is difficult enough for survivors of abuse to feel anything special about themselves. It is almost unfathomable to think we hold anything of value that others are interested in hearing, much less publishing a full life story about these brutal acts. So, it was SAFE for me to call it a novel; it was typical of me to put myself much lower than any other deserving being; I WAS TRAINED THROUGHOUT MANY YEARS THAT I HAD NOTHING ANY OTHER PERSON WOULD BE INTERESTED IN HEARING. I HAD AN ENTIRE COMMUNITY ABANDON ME IN THIS HELL FOR TWELVE YEARS, SO THEY DROVE HOME THE WORDS OF MY PARENTS —-

‘NO ONE WILL CARE AND NO ONE WILL EVER HELP YOU’ – ‘YOU DESERVED EVERYTHING YOU GOT’!!

Did I really deserve all of their evil? Did a five year old girl deserve to be viciously molested and tortured in front of her brother and two other neighbor boys? Did that child also deserve to be terrified into silence, threatened that if she spoke of what happened he would be sure and get her back, maybe even kill her? Did I deserve to be trained as the family slave, answer that little brass bell when it rang, no matter what I was doing? Did I deserve to be trained in how to entice grown men at the age of 11? Did I deserve to be traded off for the price of a couple of beers, just to satisfy his sick sadistic power over me? Did I deserve to be ripped apart with a shotgun barrel at just 12 because I went begging for my mother’s help? Did I deserve for school mates to come to our house and be forced to give oral sex to them? Did I deserve to be the entertainment at the late night adult male parties held at our house, while mother stepped in her bedroom to watch tv, then told I was the one who wanted to join the party? Did I deserve to be trained into being his whore, the one he could control and act out his dark evil against? Did I deserve to be left to physically rot away in mother’s lack of caring for the little girl she brought into this world? Did I deserve to be treated like trash, less than dog shit on the street by almost everyone who came into my life? Did I deserve for the girls at school not to friend me, but instead to whisper, point, degrade me even further? Did I deserve for teacher’s to belittle me for not having homework done or not knowing the answer to the classroom question? Did I deserve the law enforcement to drive by our house when the fights started with a raging evil drunk, but not stop and see who was being harmed? Did I deserve for everyone to shun me, call me ‘THE VILLAGE WHORE’ rather than seeing me as a CHILD; a little girl trapped inside a house of horror? REALLY, did I deserve to be a slave, a sex object, a disgusting example of what other children should NOT be? DID I DESERVE FOR THE FAMILY FRIENDS, THE VISITORS, THE TEACHERS, THE LAW, THE ENTIRE F’N TOWN TO DISCARD ME?

Tell me town’s people of Freeburg, HOW WOULD YOU DEAL WITH THIS IF IT WERE YOU OR YOUR CHILD? What made me so much less worthy than others of your caring and your help?

SO HERE GOES THE FINAL RELEASE OF MY SECRETS…..

My mother who allowed her daughter to be used, abused, raped, beaten, left her to rot, never supplied so much as a toothbrush and never did any single measure to protect her, simply gave her to the man she married, the man whose own adopted son warned her about his vicious evil – MONA WHITE. Mother you let everyone believe that you were the victim in that house, that you had no control over what happened and poor little you had to deal with the drunk, but I know the truth!!! TRUTH – he was putty in your hands. He would have done anything for you to act as if you loved him. He was your husband, not mine. He was never attacking to you, but YOU ALLOWED him to attack your daughter almost every single day for an entire twelve years. You, Mona White, allowed him to bring men to our house, you went into the bedroom and watched tv, then blamed the child because she was ordered by him to take part, you said she wanted it. You allowed him to take me on your dates together when I was just around 12 years old. You sat in the chair as he took me on the dance floor and in front of every adult in the place, rubbed himself on me and ‘taught’ me how to move my hips & ass so it felt all good to him. You, Mona White, allowed the infection on my skin to eat away at me for three continuous years before you took me to see ONE DOCTOR, but you never took me back and never cared again about the filth that covered my flesh. You, Mona White, allowed me to get detention in Freshman year because you couldn’t give me TWO DOLLARS to buy a can of deodorant. You sat at the kitchen table, looked me in the eye and said, ‘if you’d take a fucking bath then you wouldn’t stink so fucking bad.’ YOU never kept him out of the bathroom so I could safely bathe, you never stopped him from coming into my room at night. When you worked the bar you were too caught up in all the attention you were receiving to give a shit about the drunken pissed off man you just sent home to your children. YOU WERE NOT THE VICTIM – YOU WERE AN ABUSER OF YOUR OWN DESIGN!!! YOU cared about your youngest daughter, God forbid anyone should hurt her. You took her to the doctor, you took her to the dentist, you allowed her all of the material possessions she wanted, YOU COULDN’T WAIT FOR ME TO LEAVE YOUR HOUSE. Yet who was the person you have always called on when you were sad, angry, needed a friend or a listening ear? ME!! You cared about your older son, you cared about the abandoned children who you sheltered from the streets and the strangers you gave a home to, but YOU COULD NOT & WOULD NOT PROTECT YOUR OWN DAUGHTER!!! I reveal you now, the anger flows through my blood and I’ve carried your secrets for all my life. NOW YOU DESERVE all that comes your way!!!

Stepfather –MALCOLM WHITE – you disgusting evil son of a bitch!!! Who gave you the right to destroy a little girl with so much evil? Who gave you the right to sell her off and trade her out? Who gave you the right to beat her, torture her, brutalize every moment of her existence, then stalk her in her adult life. Who gave you the right to be so obsessed with me you crept outside the bedroom window of my home with my future husband. You stalked me at work, asking who would be the next man to take your daughter home and fuck her? Who gave you the right to ask the boyfriends, husbands, dates about what it was like to fuck me and what did I allow them to do, give them ideas on things they should do, hold me by the hair and threaten to blow my head off if I didn’t give all those school boys a blow job. You terrorized me from the moment you came into my life. You controlled every second of my day, it was always in my head and I never once ever doubted that you would kill me. You wanted to buy a trailer, but wanted your own special key, a place where ‘WE COULD PARTIES AND INVITE ALL YOUR COWORKERS AND BUDDIES TO JOIN IN’. You kept me from bathing for almost a full FIVE SOLID YEARS!!! You snuck into the bathroom when I was 17 so you could watch me try to shower, fearful you would try your sick games with me again. You took away my value, you took away my belief that I deserved any form of human kindness. YOUR WIFE, MY MOTHER, made sure you were buried with FULL MILITARY HONORS for the service in the air force during the Korean war, but this girl wrote up her own obituary for you…..this is what I posted on my refrigerator for a few months so that I could allow myself to feel the hatred toward you and her. This is what I published as I wrote out ‘My Justice’…… because I changed your name to ‘Walter’ in the book and never gave you a last name, now I write out the full name of the devil who tried, BUT DID NOT SUCCEED, at destroying the spirit of the person I am today.

“Here lies Malcolm White, the man who terrorized a little girl for twelve constant years of her life. He molested her, beat her, tortured her, stalked her, and raped her. He was able to have this control because of the mother who neglected to hear her daughter’s cry for help. He was given the secrecy because the little girl was too terrified to speak about the fears of her night. Now he must answer for his crimes as he is in front of the world’s strongest judge. It is my belief that he will now pay his penance for which is deserved of these crimes.”

In TRUTH, this is a very mild obituary and does not even begin to cover the levels of extreme evil you forced onto a child. No longer will I allow either of you to hide in society, to be seen as decent people, or for my mother to be seen as a VICTIM. No longer will I carry the burden of your pain, your memories, or feel the heavy fear of my afterlife because of your torture. I am now free from the both of you, no longer a child, no longer a helpless victim, but instead a true, honest, incredible survivor who has made it through all of your pain, your discarding of my being, the town’s people of Freeburg are held accountable for what they witnessed and heard, what they took part in and what they ignored, what they allowed to happen and the shame & blame they tagged on that child. I carry no longer any of that shame, I don’t carry the blame, I am not ‘your village whore’

I AM WORTHY – THIS IS MY TRUTH!!! ‘My Justice’ is my AUTOBIOGRAPHY!!

I do not apologize for the anger of this blog, I do not apologize for the words I’ve used, this is finally my truth. Thank you for reading and I hope their names are passed all around the social sites, pasted throughout every newspaper and that articles are published around the globe with their names. I will not name my siblings, nor will I name the men who have beaten and almost killed me, THESE TWO BEINGS ARE THE ROOT OF ALL THAT WAS THE BRUTAL HELL OF MY LIFE FOR ALMOST 37 YEARS!!!

©Patricia A. McKnight

Author: ‘My Justice’

Fndr/CEO – Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming

http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com

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Direct Email: p.mcknight@charter.net

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A Child the Town Forgot

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Hello;

May I please ask for just a few moments of your time to read this message & view the short two minute attached video? Any consideration is hugely appreciated. http://youtu.be/0Rpt_oHU5NM

My name is Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight and I am reaching out to find an organization or person who will help me continue the healing journey forward.

Why I am contacting you….

There are many thousands of survivors of past abuses & violence speaking up today about the horrors of their past. In our society it seems we have become almost numb, trained into tolerating a certain level of these attacks within our homes. Today, I am trying to break this silent barrier!! Myself and many other advocates work online and in our communities constantly helping those who’ve been harmed to find their way out of the cloud of madness and finally find their own path in life, letting go of the pain to soar into their future. So now, I am contacting any and all who have the power to create change in our society. You have this power and you can encourage many others to stand with the survivors, rather than blame the victims. We were children left by the tolerated generational acceptance to these acts, but we no longer have to teach our children this tolerance. We can change how these crimes are looked at & prosecuted today. We can change their future by empowering them with voice. Erin’s Law has paved the doorway for us to teach our children about sexual abuse, but are we teaching them? Are we teaching them to speak up no matter who is harming them; even if it’s their parents. As most of us well know, these acts are most often done within the walls of our own homes. The families don’t want the embarrassment of the public’s knowledge so they put on the best front possible to the outside world, but when the door to our home is closed, then only the victims know how dark the evil can become.

You see, my family didn’t put up any kind of false front at all in our rural community, there was no perfect family life on the outside of our home. It was simply that my stepfather and his vicious temper were so well known that my mother got away with placing herself as a victim, but I know that she was never harmed by this man. Instead she gave him her oldest daughter, the child she had with her second husband and the one she used as a house slave, a family caregiver, the family whore.

A bit of my history; I grew up in Freeburg, Illinois, which used to be a small town American coal mining community. My time spent there was most of my youth from about 1969-1983. I know during these times things were much different than they are today, but not that much has changed in our rural areas, nor our cities when it comes to abuse & violence within our homes.

Sadly, I was the child a town forgot, a town dismissed, a town ignored and today I carry the emotional wounds & the physical scars because of the fear of my stepfather’s evil. At the age of five he first viciously molested me while my mother was at her bridal shower preparing to marry him just a few weeks later. This attack was done while he was babysitting my brother and two other neighbor boys. He enjoyed that he could be evil with an audience to watch and it just got worse from that moment forward.

At the age of nine my mother walked in early from work and found him in bed with me; completely naked with his erection ready to be inserted. At eleven he began offering me out to other local men at the town’s bars for the price of a couple of beers. I was just twelve years old when he brutally raped me with the barrel of his favorite shotgun, my younger sister & older brother were downstairs watching their favorite television show. By the time I was thirteen the people of Freeburg didn’t see a child being sold out, brutally attacked, ignored & neglected from all forms of medical care & human kindness; they saw the girl who was used to excite their husbands, too well informed about sex for her age. In short, the reputation I had at this very young age was simply put as, ‘The village whore’ and this reputation would stay with me throughout my teens.

My mother would not protect me from him, although she knew exactly what was happening. She wouldn’t stop him from trapping her child in the bathroom every time I tried to bathe. He used his ugly games to teach me how to wash the right parts of my body; this started right after they were married. Mother also refused ANY & ALL forms of medical care or basic human needs, even human kindness for her own daughter was something she just couldn’t allow herself to do. She used her daughter as her housekeeper, babysitter, family caregiver, cook and willingly sacrificed her daughter so that she would not have to tolerate the sadistic needs of the man she chose as a husband.

By the time I reached thirteen, I had already taken my own small step at protecting myself when I chose to stop bathing, sounds disgusting I know. From the age of twelve when he wouldn’t leave the bathroom and mother wouldn’t chase him out as she sat downstairs hearing me shout out for her help; this is when I took that horrible choice and never bathed again for almost FIVE YEARS. Think about this please, just for a moment, a young girl beginning her periods, growing through puberty, used as a house slave, given as property, sold to local men for their enticement & wandering hands; even her own family still see her today as HIS WHORE and not the child who needed rescued from their evil cruelty. The small town of Freeburg left me to grow in this hell; filthy, rotting, and disgusting.

I attended Carl L. Barton Elementary school at the early stages of his evil attacks, which haunted me in the bed I shared with my much younger sister. His almost nightly visits were predatory and his thick coal stained hand clamped tight around my mouth to prevent so much as a whimper from seeping out. The next day at school my homework was never completed and the teacher’s would berate and belittle me, calling me stupid, lazy; making a point to direct attention my way. They were disgusted by the child whose skin was rotting away; encrusted filth covered my skin, my teeth plaque covered and broken black fangs dangling in my mouth. Almost everyone avoided physical contact in fear of catching whatever was eating away at my flesh. You’ll see a brief video attached above which shows the scars from the infection that covered almost every inch of my skin. My breath was rancid, my body horrifying and with an order as bad as the breath from my mouth. Simply put, I carried every single sign of wicked abuse, neglect, disgusting hygiene, a reputation that was built from being traded out; the local daughters were not permitted to hang out with me and the sons were not allowed to date me. I was garbage and EVERYONE in our small American town knew who to call when I did something wrong, they knew who the parent’s of this rotting whorish child were, but not ONE SINGLE PERSON ever asked so much as a question about my well being. Not one single teacher ever said a word, not one single adult man who attended the late night parties at our house for years ever said a word about the girl they used and then discarded; not one young school mate who came to the house parties filled with marijuana & alcohol, accepting the forced oral sex and handed this filthy girl as a toy ever said a word when they saw me in school the next day. It seemed all those years not one single person, not family, not neighbors, not even our local law enforcement or the many who came for the fun; I MATTERED TO NO ONE and THEY LEFT ME TO ROT IN THE HOUSE OF HORRORS.

The life I lived when I left my childhood, was one filled with self destruction; lost, confused, alcohol & marijuana addition, then into more than 20 years of almost deadly relationship/domestic violence. My three beautiful children born to my first husband had no choice but to grow in the shadow of a broken abused mother. They hid in the closets as my second husband violently beat me and on more than one occasion almost killed me. This evil of violence & abuse which took the voice of the little girl so long ago, then invaded my children’s lives and it took me until their mid teens to finally break away and slowly build a broken, but safe, existence for them and for me.

Today, people have referred to me as a ‘Hero’, ‘Conqueror over Abuse’, and even a ‘Freedom Fighter’, however I’m just simply doing what is now deeply engrained in my soul. I, along with co-founder Michal Madison, are presently building a nonprofit organization to help provide knowledge, understanding, and help for families, victims, survivors & communities who have been harmed or are dealing with some form of abuse; Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery the website Steps to Recovery, along with the community outreach broadcast of Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio, which has built a huge social following and reached over 30,000 listeners is turning into a great success – bringing awareness, enlightenment, empowerment, support, hope & faith for the many millions of survivors & advocates around the world.

I’m so grateful to say I’ve been doing a number of crucial speaking venues’; one recently with Dr. Elaine Alpert; an educational speaker for the Division of Global Health & Human Rights.

This was a chance to empower healthcare professionals to take every opportunity to question the safety of everyone who visits their offices; they may not get a second chance to save a life or rescue a victim. Coming up next, on the 19th of Sept., I am giving a two hour training presentation at the Victims Rights Annual Conference in Bay City, Michigan; invited personally by the Prosecuting Attorneys Association of Michigan.

Thankfully, by the grace of Creator, I am alive today to share hope & help for the many who are still living trapped in the silence of these crimes.  I’ve published my memoir of hell, in the story ‘My Justice’, built an incredible talk radio program, and am now moving forward with building the official nonprofit status for Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming. I am here to encourage others to stand up and say something, protect the children within our families, within our neighbor’s homes, and never let another child be so ignored by a community that they are left to rot in the evil within their home.

Thank you for any time you have given this message and plea for your attention. I’m grateful to be able to speak up and help others know their life after abuse is possible. I am grateful that I have finally found love; I am finally safe, and although I carry the physical & emotional wounds, although I carry the ugly scars & broken teeth; I am still alive!! I am building dreams in hopes that one day we can end this tolerance and begin teaching the true value of our children’s lives. They are not simply objects to be used, beaten, raped, sold and stolen away. We can inspire hope & help together, connecting hearts & holding hands around the world.

Respectfully,

‘Trish’ McKnight

Patricia A. McKnight

p.mcknight@charter.net

butterflydreams@charter.net

Phone: 618-304-7438

Author: ‘My Justice’myjustice_patriciamcknight

Exec. Director: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming

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Website: http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com

Talk Radio: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/butterflydreamsabuserecovery

Educational & Empowerment Speaker

Survivor & Emotional Health Abuse Recovery Research

Survivors World online support group

Blog: http://www.survivorsjustice.com

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**Believe all things are possible with you in the active equation** ~trish mcknight

art designs by: Michal Madison, Watercolor Artist for the Abused

©Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery 2012

Butterfly Dreams makes it BIG TIME!!

Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio

WE ARE

THE OFFICIAL RADIO BROADCAST

FOR

PLUNA FOUNDATION

MALE ABUSE AWARENESS WEEK

2013

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The fabulous, Petra Luna, ‘Artist For The Abused’, has awarded Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio the very distinct honor to be the OFFICIAL RADIO NETWORK for her celebration –

 MALE ABUSE AWARENESS WEEK 2013!!

It was a little over a year ago when I had the absolute pleasure to interview Petra Luna; Founder of PLunaFoundation. I was so overtaken by her direct and very firm views about child abuse, especially giving a voice to the MALE SURVIVORS!! She has made it her mission through her music, writing, developing the foundation, and most of all  holding a concert/event venue welcoming all MEN who have been harmed in Child Abuse.

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“Male Abuse Awareness Week is an awareness campaign held every year from Dec 1st through 8th and the website is the extension of that program.  It is a program dedicated to the special needs of young boys and men who have been abused, in an attempt to stop these young males from growing up to abuse others and repeat the cycle of abuse.”  PLuna Foundation

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VISIT Plunafoundation.com or  Help4Guys.org – Be sure to GET INVOLVED; help the boys & men around you be aware that it is SAFE for them to speak up and be heard. Check out the websites so you can stay up to date with the information for the event this year.  You can also review information from previous years, and read how many young men are breaking down the societal stigma of the silent, enduring man of yesterday. These incredible voices have joined in the hearts of many others; finally they are feeling enough support, friendship, respect, understanding and most of all SAFETY to express their hidden fears.

Join us this year as we celebrate the FREEDOM for the MALE VOICES OF ABUSE. Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio will be honoring the voices of MALE SURVIVORS for the ENTIRE MONTH of December in a special celebration with the PLuna Foundation’s Male Abuse Awareness Week!!

Share the experience with your friends, family, social networks & communities. Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio; Not just another abuse radio program!!

What is the PLuna Foundation?

Our Mission
The P.Luna Foundation fights child abuse by creating innovative programs to educate, aid law enforcement, an…d build awareness about the growing epidemic of child abuse and exploitation.
Our Vision
We aspire to end the anonymity of child sexual predators and to prevent future abuse through intellect, logic and virtue.
What do we do?
Child Abuse EDUCATION, AWARENESS AND PREVENTION

Catch the world Petra Luna!!

 

 

©Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery

Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight & Michal Madison

http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com

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Trish’s contact: p.mcknight@charter.net

‘Believe anything is possible with you in the active equation’….’Trish’ McKnight