Author Bio; Patricia A. McKnight

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Author, Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight, may be a child from our past generations but she is using her extremely evil childhood to inspire parents & communities to provide resources of help & healing for all persons dealing with some form of past or present abuse, violence and/or trafficking issues today.

Ms. McKnight, is of those souls who has endured a lifetime in a trained tolerance, almost an expected acceptance of evil, throughout more than thirty years of her life. In her adult relationships there were repeated abusers who terrorized, controlled, and even tried to take her life many times, but yet she never left them. What was it that kept her in this hell? Why didn’t she leave?

This incredibly strong survivor speaks today, through many venues and platforms; explaining how she was a ‘trained’ child who had been taught to expect nothing different. Even when she finally realized she deserved kindness and love, she still didn’t believe there were resources to help her and her children rebuild and recover from the endured painful years of trauma.

Her story has been compared to the New York Times Best Seller, ‘A Child Called It’, by the amazing Dave Pelzer. The extreme evil against this one incredible soul has been used by Dr. Brenda Markert-Green as a teaching guide to her students through Le Sierra University’s Online Psychology course for upcoming therapists. Dr. Markert-Green has shared, ‘The memoir ‘My Justice’ gave my students a secret window into the soul of one child, woman, mother who kept searching for peace and love, but instead found only one violent abuser after another. It allowed my students to connect deeply with her inner battles from the trauma and how desperately she just wanted to give her children the best; however her wounded spirit could not find the right path. My students were completely swept away by the ongoing years of trauma and the destructive behaviors it left behind.’

Trapped inside her own private hell for decades, Ms. McKnight, has finally found her courage and freedom. She published her years filled with unbelievable horror in the memoir ‘My Justice’. A book she says is so disturbing she wishes she would have put a warning label for others. As one of the other survivors who read & reviewed this story stated so well, ‘It was as if the child opened up to finally tell the world her story, and all in one breath it just fell out onto the pages.’

An exquisitely written journey to find safety, love, and happiness; ‘My Justice’ is an intense read. The pages are filled with both a child’s crying nightmare and a spirit who just could never give up. You’re raw emotions will be ignited. You will scream, be outraged, cry, and cheer her on as she stumbles in a trance-like acceptance of hell. Your views of these actions against our children and our partners, will certainly be changed forever. You will feel the need to do something now!!

‘These actions, which we’ve been taught to hold in secret within our family unit, are life altering. Studies have been done over and over again that reveal the Complex P.T.S.D. Syndrome, which is often diagnosed; is at the same levels of our returning veterans. We herald them, their families support them, guide them, and the resources keep building to help them recover. However, when you say you carry the Complex P.T.S.D. Syndrome from being a ‘prisoner of war’ within your own home, and especially as a child who can never fight back and doesn’t have a weapon or any mode of protection; it is then society somehow tags you with a Mental Illness and discards you, but yet you must maintain a life and professional career as if nothing happened; you cannot seek retribution or financial benefits due to ongoing battles with Statute of Limitations; victims are left to struggle and find their own support system of those who will even believe them and help them see what life & love is really about.’

‘How can we expect our children to flourish in their lives, when we are turning away from the voices of those crying out for our help? They need and deserve our support, after all their HOME may be filled with some of the most evil actions including torture, rape, and trafficking.’

Ms. Patricia McKnight

Today Ms. McKnight is a voice heard across the web on her own Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio ‘Featured’ broadcast through the Blog Talk Network. She’s founded the not for profit organization of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery and speaks whenever invited to include such venues as; Community Churches, Rallies for Awareness, Key Note Speaker for Rescue & Restore, part of a panel for St. Clair County’s Domestic Violence Reform Program, and gave a two hour presentation at the Prosecuting Attorney’s Association of Michigan at their Annual Victim’s Advocate Training Seminar in Bay City.

This survivor has come a 1000 miles from the victim she once was. It is the need to end the cycle moving forward within her own family, which continues to be her drive and strength, but it is the survivors she mentors and those who have friended her and supported her journey that she gives the highest respect & gratitude. In her own words she shares their mission; ‘Connecting Hearts & Holding Hands to give our children a better world tomorrow.’

You can connect with ‘Trish’ throughout many of our social & professional sites. You are also invited to check out the fully developed website at www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com or listen to her on the talk radio network at www.blogtalkradio.com/butterflydreamstalkradio. You will find ‘My Justice’ , along with its many reviews, available through Authorhouse.com, Amazon.com, BN.com, and almost all other leading online book resources. Her hope is to get this book read by other college students who are studying to be future educators, therapists, psychiatrists, & psychologists. It is recommended by the Highly Accommodated Five Star Reviews from Teaching Mentors & Therapists, Advocates & Survivors.

A closing message from this Author/Mentor/Speaker/Radio Host/Survivor; Founder & CEO of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery,

‘Always believe anything is possible with you in the active equation’

Positive Affirmations:

You deserve as much love as you freely give to others

You deserve a safe place to lay down your head at night

Your deserve respect, kindness, happiness, compassion

You deserve roses in your garden of life!!

Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight

Email: butterflydreams@live.com

Available for Speaking, Research, Crisis Support & Resource Assistance

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Published by @Trecia_Ann

Recently, Facebook locked and removed my decade long creation of work and public profile, which focused my work as an advocate, speaker, mentor, and creator of more than a few programs used throughout Illinois, but also shared nationally and some have reached international platforms. So.... let's start fresh and see where it goes! Please see the writings on this blog dating back into 2011, created after the publication of 'My Justice'. There are two specifically, which have been tagged and shared by many....."Judging Eyes" and "Triggers; what they are and how to handle them" I am a survivor of over thirty years trapped inside the silence and brutality of Family Facilitated Violence, Torture, and Child Sex Trafficking. In Feb. 2011, I chose to publish the secrets and the horrors endured; the many levels of destruction and decay which the community around me witnessed, ignored, condemned and blamed regardless of the injuries and tortures endured. It all became the learned patterns of self-hatred and tolerance which was a huge factor in my adult life. Have you endured childhood harm, or endured terroristic types of abuses? Did you feel unworthy of life, breathing, love or respect? Did you feel as if no one ever really saw you, heard you, or seemed to care about the silent cruelties of your existence? It wasn't until I honestly began a strong focus on healing myself, which took years of researching credible data and published research surrounding the lasting effects of abuse, violence, sexual harm, and human trafficking that I began to understand who I was and why there were many traits and tragedies that influenced my adult choices, relationships, the chaos deep in my soul and the behaviors used to survive. It seemed to control everything inside me and it was filled with pain, and tragedy. The research became my rebuilding journey and my road to advocacy, creating legislative changes, sitting as an active member and providing testimony in the creation of area task force operations, victim/survivor services, trauma informed awareness for law enforcement, educators, social services, healthcare and community providers. I began that research of understanding myself in 2008, wrote the memoir "My Justice' in 2010, began working to change statutes in my home state in 2013, became a Certified DV Advocate and Panel Member of DV Offender Education Program in 2015, which then initiated a decade long career as a trusted, confidential advocate, and a highly skilled and knowledgeable speaker/educator on the topic of Assessment, Family/Survivor Rebuilding, Trauma Informed Care & Response, with the primary focus on family/relationship acts of terroristic abuses and/or human trafficking. Beginning in January 2010 there have been developed programs and connected resources for men, women, children, and families who endured these same types of tragedies. Unfortunately, our human society still has barriers to seek help or speak openly about these types of tragedies, especially if it happened in our homes and families. The laws to protect from such harms were enacted for children in 1963, as an amendment to the Social Security Act. Domestic Violence was not a topic until 1995, when then Senator Joe Biden introduced the Violence Against Women Act, which has since been adapted to provide shelters, counseling, protection orders, and rebuilding services for ALL persons regardless of gender or identity. Although slavery was brought to an end by the historical act of President Abraham Lincoln, we unfortunately have millions of human beings still being traded, sold, controlled and trapped in a hellish evil, which often begins by a parent or intimate partner. Legislation didn't arise regarding the term 'Human Trafficking' until the turn of the new millennium. Protection for victims of human trafficking was signed into law as the 'Trafficking In Persons Act of 2000', which with modern day social media it quickly became a new hot-topic point, which then sparked the creation of Trauma Informed Care, Rebuilding & Trauma Therapy, and thus adult survivors began speaking out about the dark terrifying reality of Child Sex Trafficking. Today many use the term, Modern Day Slavery, and we have multi-faceted task force operations and rescue resources working around the globe to end this new form of human slavery. We also have a few hundred thousand or more who are adult survivors of histories involving Parental Child Sex Trafficking. In one recent study from 2018, they found 85% of these victims were trafficked by parents in trade for drugs, family needs, or basic human survival. As I look back on the career that grew from my own personal need to understand the chaos in my head, the constant failed relationships and almost murderous acts committed against me; as I deal with increasing health problems that includes multiples of head and spinal cord traumas; the most important goal for me from day one of this extremely personal experience; the healing and rebuilding of my own children and grandchildren who were all continued generational victims of the trauma influenced behaviors and choices that resulted from the destruction enforced by my mother and stepfather many decades ago. The little girl, 'Trecia Ann', she survived pure evil as an entire community witnessed, shamed, blamed, and dismissed the visible decay and rot, stench and filth covered, battered and intoxicated body of a young girl who was publicly exploited and shared in the bars of that small town, in her home with boys she attended school with and adult men from the local coalmine. It was as if they all got a thrill from watching her respond to the ring of that little brass bell. They laughed, molested, raped, and purchased for a few bucks or a few beers the sexual use of that young girl right in full public view! Her mother held the power to stop it all, but rather enjoyed having a 'slave' to cook, clean, care for the family as well as entertain the sadistic alcoholic man she chose to marry. Today, I'm so honored and proud to have that little girl's spirit with me. It is through the use of my lived experience, along with a decade of research, and at least five certifications in prevention, response, and trauma; I've assisted a few hundred survivors through the multilevel process of rebuilding and reclaiming their voice, their safety, their freedom! I've trained law enforcement, healthcare, childrens service investigators, our school educators, and co-presented in trainings with some outstanding experts in the field. For the many I've assisted or empowered, they continue becoming thriving survivors, advocates, authors, speakers, and most important of all; they are healing their children and grandchildren! It is a truly beautiful experience and I am so amazed to have been a spark, a resource, or a friend in their life reclaiming freedom. The adult children of generations past have broken through the glass ceiling and finally there is a hint of change in the world. "A lifetime filled with daily torture, tragedy, and pain creates someone completely different than we should have been. We feel that person inside, but our lives are altered by the emotional and physical suffering. We cover it up and hide it deep inside through substance abuse, which falsely helps us believe we are doing fine. The extreme physical and emotional injuries leave our mental and physical selves terribly impacted. Thankfully there is more information and resources of help available today for all types of adverse or traumatic experiences. We have specialized therapeutic help and healthcare professionals developing new ways to identify and assist persons harmed or at risk of harm. We have so much more to do, so please help by having casual open conversations with your friends, family, coworkers, leaders, and especially our kids. Teach them early how to avoid both online and in person harms. Encourage adults and kids both to use the BDA Buddy Skills 2.0, which you will find through my list of assessments and prevention strategies. "My Justice' was written through my own beginning of acknowledging and releasing the personal destruction of the girl once known as 'Trecia Ann'. It is not an easy read, but it has opened many eyes about the reality of evil that occurs inside our homes, against those too small to protect themselves or understand what's happening. It was published to release the thick layers of trauma, sex trafficking, and disfiguring neglect. It is the voice of the enslaved child who existed only to answer the ring of 'his' bell, and the enforced burden to keep my own private terrorist alive. 'My Justice' is NOT SUGGESTED FOR ANYONE UNDER 16 years of age. It discusses the permanently wounding life and the cycle of destruction that held me in tolerating ridicule, control, and violence in my adult relationships. This truth was published to inspire others to take an in-depth look at their life and behaviors as a result of their past, in hopes they too will better understand their suffering today, the continued relationships with the parents and family who inflicted those harms, and finally breaking free from that pain so they can reclaim their voice and their true sense of freedom! We always have the opportunity to learn that we are worthy, capable, incredibly strong, compassionate, and filled with endless possibilities. It is a choice. It is a conscious decision to dig into our trauma, take ownership of our own failures, the harm our choices have caused, and the work we need to do to change it and succeed for ourselves and our families. It is such an honor to have 'My Justice' used at the collegiate level for psychology classes, upcoming therapists, and educators. Today my life is very blessed. I'm finally safe, feel truly loved, finally feeling the magic of life! Always choose to see your star and how it shines on others in your journey. My greatest power only began to show when I first made the choice to end the violent relationships and behaviors around my children; to give them something better, something SAFE!! In choosing to share my own story, I've also gone the serious extra step to educate myself through years of research, attending training opportunities, and collaborating with other advocate resources focused in human resilience and healing from abuse, sexual harm, and sex trafficking. Today there are experts digging deep to recreate help and healing. I've chosen to use my past as a way to inspire a greater good and; hopefully, somehow change the cycle of tragedy in our homes so that we empower our kids to live a more positive path. The best education we can give is healing our survivors of traumatic experiences so we understand what they felt then and what they wish they would have had available; those who could have and should have said something. We can change things for our life today, but best of all in healing our wounds, we give communities a supportive working strategy in assisting the people in our lives. One step at a time, one caring soul at a time, we can give them a path to changing our human society as a whole. This is a tell-all, which was written in the midst of my third nervous breakdown as I struggled to put all my distorted pieces back together, and help my children understand how the violence I tolerated against me invaded their well-being. My children have always been my world, but my behaviors, lack of healthy parenting and life skills, and an inability to remain stable have caused another generation of suffering for my grandchildren. This is a very difficult thing to watch and the continued tragedies that seem to keep affecting the choices in my family. Writing this book was only the beginning of trying to release all that has haunted me for so many years. I have finally removed his thick, cruel, coal-stained hand which trapped me in fear for decades. Those hands and his evil, her housemaid and caregiver; created a slave, and that slave submitted to horrific and brutal attacks but always felt it was her burden to bear. I lived with that hand holding me down, continually terrorizing and silencing, stealing my voice to protect their pure evil. Throughout decades the dysfunction caused by the chaos inside my head would affect every relationship, my children, and cast a shadow of darkness on everything good in my life. Living in the true spirit of freedom, I have now become a strong advocate against the life cycle of human destruction. If we want to control our life and achievements today, then we cannot live stuck in the tragedy of hardships and pain. Life is meant to be lived, to be enjoyed, to see what you can do and what you can achieve, to find out what is important to you. We all become adults. We all have a burden to bear. Stand up and keep moving, keep living, keep dreaming. You have two choices in recreating and rebuilding yourself. Do you stay stuck in the dark shadows of your past? Do you dig deep and find that spirit that kept you alive so that you can become the proud, strong, capable, resilient, kind human being? Which do you choose and how will that choice affect your children and theirs? We can be supportive, and provide resources and suggest help so that families suffering from addiction or past trauma can find a recovery balance to rebuild their family into a more positive life pattern. We will recover, we will rebuild, we will conquer the pains of yesterday to live in the true sense of life, freedom, and safety today. Patricia 'Trish' McKnight Author: 'My Justice' Fndr/CEO: Butterfly Dreams Alliance, NFP Mentor/Advocate/Speaker/Survivor

3 thoughts on “Author Bio; Patricia A. McKnight

    1. Thank you so much, be careful with the read, especially if you are a survivor. It may trigger a lot of memories for you and some of those may not be very pleasant depending on your history. In respect & kindness, thank you ~~trish

      1. I have read only a third of your book and I feel so terrible not only for your pain and suffering; but, disgust for the parents and system that failed you. You are so brave to confront the demons who kept you in living hell for too many years. You have my support, deepest empathy, and encouragement going forward.

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