The perception of personal value I passed into my children’s lives

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My only perceived value was in my sexuality as an object, not as a person. Needless to say, seeing my value only through my being wanted by a man flowed into my adult relationships and my example as a mother. The broken spirit of ugliness, overweight teen with scarred disfigured skin from not bathing; black broken fangs for teeth from never given the human kindness and decency for proper hygiene; the teen I was with all my distorted perceptions felt grateful for any man wanting to be with me or choosing me as their wife.
“I was well trained to be submissive; accepting their degradation, control, beatings and almost murderous actions because I was nothing without them.”

Survivors World – Emotional Abuse, the bruises you can’t see 03/20 by Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery | Self Help Podcasts

Survivors World – Emotional Abuse, the bruises you can’t see 03/20 by Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery | Self Help Podcasts.

It is our Survivors World night and we are talking about the bruises you can’t see, the control strings our parents & partners use to keep us in ‘line’. You are not a puppet on strings. You have value & You are capable of living without them. Call in at 347-215-7754 or connect in our chatroom with our volunteers. Show starts at 9pm eastern/ 8pm central/ 7pm mountain/ 6m pacific time. We welcome men, women & most certainly teens. Emotional abuse is a vile destruction of the person you were intended to be, but you do not have to give them this power!!

On this show we are looking at the studies on this type of harm, but more importantly we want to hear about your experiences. Did your parents commonly use the word ‘Stupid’ to describe you as a person? Did/does your patner or spouse have you believing that you have absolutely no identity without them, that you are completely incapable of achieving/completing the slighest small task? Are you constantly struggling to see yourself in a mirror, some reflection of a person who does exist? You are invited to come share this with us as we open up our phones to hear your voice!!

Control Games with Words

We all know a bit about emotional abuse, but this write up is one of the best I’ve seen. These bruises cover our spirit and strip our soul. We begin to second guess everything about our person, our behaviors, habits, absolutely everything. Have a read and absorb the information, you just might meet someone who just might need someone and you will have a resource you can turn to for help. United together ending abuse, it will take our generation continuing to make a difference in their lives tomorrow. thanks much 🙂

From Torn 2 Pieces 2 Peace

If you fear having feelings independent of and in opposition to one of your parents and becoming a target of rejection you’ve seen him or her direct at others who disagree, you’re likely being manipulated.

You (or a friend) may have a parent who is so controlling and possessive, he or she will want to cut those you love (or once loved) out of your life.  This hurts. It hurts because, among other things, it’s not loving.  It’s called Parental Alienation, and some experts call it “the worst form of child abuse.”  imagesCAZ5BLXM

Tragically, some parents will use the following to cut your other parent out of your life:

  • guilt (e.g., “I don’t know why your father left us; everything seemed okay”);

  • intimidation (e.g., “Go to your mother’s if you want, but you are not to hug her cute little boyfriend anymore. Do you understand?”);

  • fear (e.g., “I just want you kids to know that I’11 be here the whole time…

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Nominated for the Liebster Award for Domestic Abuse Advocacy Blog!

Thank you my fighting friend for the recognition and nomination for Liebster Award in blogging to end Domestic Violence. My target is about ending the harm we have been numbed to accepting within our family unit. The child abuse, the attacks on partners/spouses, the parental alienation which then turns into grandparent alienation. Our family units have been broken and twisted by what has been found acceptable in our homes. How can we tell our children we are looking out for your best interest then beat them, molest & rape them, emotionally destory all that they are inside and leave them abandoned in a world of hell. How can we say I love you to someone then in that same breath reach out and tear them apart, ripping them from the soul and causing severe physical harm? How can we as a society sit back and become so numb to all the evil that exists within our family unit and within our homes? Today matters in at least one person’s life and your kindness and caring attention could be what saves them from years of pain. We must do this as a united strong stand around the world if we ever expect to change these human behaviors and acceptance in our relationships. It is an honor to receive your nomination and I respect all you are doing. In kindness, respect, and full support of your efforts, sincerely Trish McKnight survivorsjustice.com

Its a Family Affair – Why children do not report abuse? 03/17 by Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery | Self Help Podcasts

Its a Family Affair – Why children do not report abuse? 03/17 by Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery | Self Help Podcasts.

Why don’t children tell about abuse?  @butterflydrms1 radio!! Call us in 1hr. 347-215-7754

We are asking & sharing tonight in just ONE HOUR. Listen in and call us to be part of the show. Understanding is one of the first steps of providing a process in every small community to respond to those families in need & those 3.7 million reports of child maltreatment that go into our nation’s system every year!!

Pedophilia as an accepted Sexual Orientation – Never!!!

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PLEASE SEE BELOW FOR WHAT WAS PUBLISHED AS A FACEBOOK NOTE, NOW I AM ASKING FOR HELP FROM ALL THOSE WHO FOLLOW HERE!!!

Dear Friends, Family & Media Resources;

Many of you know my story and I personally know many of your stories. You probably know the stories of many others who have endured the vicious acts of Child Sexual Abuse. Now I’m not saying that physical abuse is any less of an issue but this post is focused on the need to stop PEDOPHILES from bringing their attractions and actions against our children. The most important factor, how can a child give true ‘CONSENT’ when they can’t even decide their favorite Crayon Color? Still, we are supposed to accept this as a Sexual Orientation. ABSOLUTELY NOT!!!!!

On Monday, March 10th, we did a show on Butterfly Dreams Radio about the U.K. recent talks to permit Pedophilia as a sexual orientation. Fighting for the rights of Pedophiles to be accepted within our society. How much lower will we sink in destruction of our children? This show was inspired by the blog feature provided by David Pittman  http://together-we-heal.org/2014/03/04/we-cant-prove-sex-with-children-does-them-harm-says-labour-linked-nccl/

I would encourage everyone to listen in to this very important broadcast, we will certainly be hearing talk of this in the U.S. at least by next year if it’s not already here. This can NEVER be accepted within our society!!!

Listen to the show here– http://www.blogtalkradio.com/butterflydreamstalkradio/2014/03/11/its-a-family-affair–pedophilia-should-it-be-an-accepted-act

There are studies completed by the National Institute of Mental Health, Center for Disease and Control, and many many advocate resources who all share the many deep wounding affects the moment any form of Adult to Child sexual interaction takes place, but you know what, those studies are back up material to what THOUSANDS OF SURVIVORS are saying today!!

SURVIVORS & SOCIETY, the most important fact we can give to end what is now being discussed as a sexual orientation, but what is really a VICIOUS PERSONAL CRIME – We MUST share our stories!!!

It is crucial for our entire human society to realize that the THOUSANDS, which I am connected to online and millions more that are living among us everyday; we must hear their voices!!! Please take a chance and TELL YOUR STORY TO SAVE THE CHILDREN FROM THIS PAIN TOMORROW. Listen to how deviate and evil the crimes can get against those who we can take over complete control, force our vile acts of sexual desire and then force them into silence and tolerance, day after day, year after year.

An adult who is being attacked can kick, scream, fight back or run. We have the knowledge and understanding of what is actually happening to us and more importantly it’s not usually someone you live with who attacks you. This is not to say that our loved ones/partners don’t rape & molest us, but we understand and we have a choice to leave.

Think about this list of things a child DOES NOT have to protect themselves:

1) A child believes they are completely dependent upon that person for their very survival

2) A child will do ANYTHING if they believe it will make that parent happy

3) A child can be easily manipulated by an adult to permit the act to happen

4) A child can be easily terrorized into believing the adult has the power to end their life as they know it, have them taken from the family they love or worse, kill the family they love

5) A child does not have the understanding of what it means to touch someone there or to rub this, kiss that.

6) A child does not have the mental capacity to ‘CONSENT’ to the sexual interaction

7) A child cannot scream out for help unless we (as a society) begin teaching them differently

8) A child cannot fight an adult

9) A child cannot run away and escape the attack

10) A child’s developing brain suffers deep emotional disturbances, especially when there is years of forced sadistic attacks and a refusal by other family members to protect them or help them.

In years passed we’ve all hid our true self in the closet far away from the judgment & rejection of others and only those in our closest circles knowing any of our suffering. Today there are THOUSANDS who can no longer live in that darkness. They have chosen to share their story for their healing, but more importantly to HELP SOCIETY UNDERSTAND THE LIFETIME OF DESTRUCTIVE BEHAVIORS AS A RESULT OF WHAT WAS FORCED IN THE SILENCE AND ACCEPTANCE OF AN ENTIRE CHILDHOOD LIVED IN THE DEVIATE AND PERSONALLY DESTRUCTING ATTACKS.

Now perhaps you are one who wants to review study after study on the affects of this CRIME on a child’s developing brain? Maybe you want to read the studies about distorted views and perceptions it creates in the adult lives of the survivors? Maybe you would prefer to study the laws and the history of our country’s Child Protection Act, which goes back as far as the first added amendment to the Social Securities Act back in 1963? All of this is important information for you to understand what it is that so many are finally realizing today. It matters to us as survivors because finally we see in black & white that we are ‘NOT’ CRAZY, these are life destroying crimes.

An easy and interesting way to find out about all of the above information here, you can listen in to the broadcasted show archives for Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio. We have discussed each and everyone of these very important truths in our country’s history and more importantly, the ongoing generationally taught human behaviors of these acts and the tolerance and silence we continue to enforce within our homes & our families. Listen in here to shows broadcasting since January 2013 and reaching close to 42,000 listens!!!http://www.blogtalkradio.com/butterflydreamstalkradio .

Throughout history, generation after generation, we continue to ignore what is happening within our families. We continue to ignore all the violence between partners/parents/couples. We then tell our children they are not allowed to talk about the fear they felt, the pain of seeing their mom or dad attack the other parent. This is detrimental enough and we know it flows out into our schools in their acting out what they see.

Sexual abuse is an even more disturbing level of secrecy. The pedophile who they live with, wake up with, and depend on for survival must keep the attacks against their own child (maybe even neighborhood children) a deeply hidden secret. They will go through extreme measures to protect THEIR SHAME from being seen by those they work with, live with, interact with everyday. They must maintain this secret so they can continue to abuse the child to satisfy their need for power or their deviate sexual cravings. We must know the ‘SIGNS & SYMPTOMS’ of a SILENT CHILD VICTIM. Survivors YOUR STORIES EDUCATE!!! YOUR STORIES EMPOWER AT LEAST ONE PERSON EVERY TIME YOU SPEAK!!! YOUR STORY SAVES LIVES!!! Your story is the most crucial weapon we have to combat against the strong ring of money, politicians, and lobbiest who are fighting to have this CRIME accepted as a SEXUAL ORIENTATION!!! Please do not hold back any longer. Your healing journey and a child’s life depends on your story.

We need your stories and we as a human society need to listen to the NUMBERS of stories. Many of the stories I’ve helped survivors through are more violent and deviate than any television producer could possibly imagine, They are more destructive to the child than any ‘NORMAL’ moral person could ever possibly accept.

TELL THE PEDOPHILES ABSOLUTELY NO – YOU WILL NOT BE PERMITTED TO HAVE SEX WITH OUR CHILDREN. Tell the molester in your family, even if it is your partner/spouse, you will not tolerate them touching or having any sexual contact or interaction with your children. Tell our justice system to punish these soul destroying criminals to the fullest extent of the law. Tell our politicians to stand behind the community and create an awareness and prevention measure in every small community around the globe. No child should ever have to endure these vile acts of harm by those entrusted with their care!!!

As a survivor I fully understand that a safe community with which to share our stories is always a much needed and absolutely fabulous resource. However, now YOUR STORY is more important than ever!! We have a huge problem on our hands, the pedophilia sexual orientation acceptance is being discussed now in the U.K.; we cannot allow this. As my dear friend Michal Madison put so very well “We need an Army of Angels sharing all of our stories”. As I’ve said many times my friends, it is the extreme details of deviate acts and the HUGE numbers of survivors who are brave enough to stand up and speak out because they know this cannot be pushed under the rug and ignored any longer. To all of you who have endured this CRIME AGAINST YOU, know that we are not alone any longer. There is nothing to be ashamed of and you have absolutely NO GUILT in this interaction. It is ALWAYS the adult (the attacker) who is to blame for their actions. Today it is crucial to empower our kids to believe and know that we as adults will protect them, we will fight for their wellbeing when they cannot fight or protect themselves. We have to stop the ongoing generationally taught forced silence and tolerance of this vicious crime!!!

MEDIA RESOURCES – PLEASE COVER THESE VERY IMPORTANT ISSUES AND KEEP THIS FIGHT TO END THESE ACTS IN OUR PUBLIC EYE!! We have a responsibility and media, as this particular broadcast will reveal, presents what is acceptable in our society. Think back to the 1960’s when it was rare to see a African American on television, then our country changed and Civil Rights Movement began. Think back to when shows didn’t use swear words, didn’t show Gay couples, didn’t reveal sexual interactions at all. Look at what we have learned to find acceptable in our society by the history of our media. (These listed comments are not a degrading remark toward any person’s race, creed, color, gender, sexual orientation, except the so-called Pedophilia Orientation) It is simply to show the history of our human society and how important our media is to what we in society learn to find acceptable and tolerable. How long will it take before we become accepting & tolerant of Pedophilia? 

Now I first went public with my story back in Feb 2011 when I published ‘My Justice‘. I know of at least 30 authors who have published and connected with me on Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio to share their life filled with pain, emotional breakdowns, ongoing mental health issues, the flat out destruction of their soul from viciously violent & sadistic, even the so called ‘gentle’ incest or inter-family tolerated and accepted years of ongoing molestation and rapes.

 Please speak out you are no longer alone! We as a society have the power to end this now. April is Child Abuse Prevention Month. I am personally inviting every resource who is having an event where a survivor can speak to please give them that opportunity. There is nothing more powerful than seeing a survivor tell their story and release their trapped inner silence; the emotions will rock you to the very core of your soul. If you are holding an event please share in the Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio & Abuse Recovery Open Facebook Group. We will be announcing events on our shows beginning the last week of March. If you want to have your event announced please post it in our group and tell us who your main speaker will be and what are they sharing to make a difference. For all persons in our society, this is a plea for you to attend at least one event in April. Let our children actually see the support we want to give them. Let them take part and feel the energy that stands at their side. Encourage them to be involved and WEAR YOUR BLUE WITH PRIDE. I know of one resource who is selling shirts at this time everyone can buy one online for $25.00. Please let’s give our kids a life filled with a positive influence it is certainly the least they deserve and we can end what has been so blindly accepted throughout our human history. Please give them this gift of love & safety within their homes, their community, their schools, their life.

Thank you,

Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming

Butterfly Dreams Team

butterflydreamsteam@live.com

Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight

Founder/Owner/CEO

Author/Advocate/Radio Host

Mentor/Crisis Resources/Survivor

Team: V.P. & COO Michal Madison, Kelly Townsend, Julia D’Alfanzo, Linda Walcher, Dr. Brenda Joyce Markert-Green, John Lewis Mealer, Mary Graziano, Faith McDaniel, Patricia Caldwell, Debbie Naylor Cox, Robbie Tshcannen, Sue Knepper

Advisory Team: Lynn C. Tolson (Beyond the Tears – A true survivors story) & Petra Luna (PLuna Foundation)

(c) Copyright Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery 2014

Its a Family Affair – Pedophilia, should it be an accepted act? 03/10 by Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery | Self Help Podcasts

Its a Family Affair – Pedophilia, should it be an accepted act? 03/10 by Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery | Self Help Podcasts.

Pedophilia, should it be an accepted act today??? BUTTERFLY DREAMS TALK RADIO – HOT TOPIC FEATURE BLOG TONIGHT w/ guest cohost Michal Madison. Live calls at 347-215-7754 or join in the chatroom. How can we protect the souls of our children???