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Last November, ‘Trish’ McKnight & Michal Madison began developing their creation of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Broadcasting. This began as a sincere friendship built from the lives of two very different, yet very similar, child abuse & domestic violence survivors. While Michal & Trish came from two very different families; Michal’s the perfect Christian family, prominent within the community and viewed as a wonderful family unit by everyone who knew them, Trish’s family was known by everyone as dysfunctional with a feared stepfather and a mother who played herself as a woman trapped in his ugliness with three children. However, if you know Trish’s history and what she shares so much about today, she carried & waved every red flag she could possibly bare as to the warning signs of something much darker on the inside of her home.
Michal & Trish chose to provide a way to touch a few lives and give a path of hope & healing support throughout many arenas, so that they could better assist the victims & survivors who were reaching out to them. In building the website & talk radio programs it is our team’s true wish to provide trusted enlightenment & empowerment for communities, families, victims & survivors to provide a full list of resources to better aide the rescue & recovery within your own neighborhoods.
Well Butterfly Dreams has far exceeded our expectations of what we had even dreamed possible. There have been at least a hundred or more who have been helped by the one on one consultations and advice from Trish’s learned knowledge, which she has spent the last Five Years trying to become her own self studied expert in providing the very best support and guidance of developing safety plans, watching our for our kids, helping victims & others within our community, dealing with P.T.S.D., the battles of depression, and challenging ourselves to rise above the pain of the crimes to see a chance at life & happiness on the other side. Michal is now a trusted Art Therapy consultant who volunteers her time specifically with children who have been or are being harmed, so that they can break out of the shell of emotions and begin to laugh, shine, and be a child again. There have been many hundreds who have used and shared our website as a resource of help and suggested it out to those in their circles. Our fast growing talk radio programs have reached over 33,000 listens in only the past 10 months.
Thankfully, many of you have sent us over your testimonials and posted them out on various groups and we sincerely appreciate all of the incredible support & friendship that has been extended our way. Now we have decided to apply for the official nonprofit status 501c3 so that we can become a recognized ETHICAL, TRUSTED, & TRANSPARENT RESOURCE for the many who are suffering today.
WE NEED YOUR HELP!!!
Our original promised funding for the growth which was promised turned out to be a false hope. We are now left with the only option of reaching our for your assistance, and this is not something we like to ask of you, but in order to maintain what we are already doing & grow with resources, connections, supporters, and new programs to help us reach further out into; we truly have no choice. If you would like to help us achieve this goal – PLEASE – visit our website where you will find the official Paypal ‘DONATE’ option. Any amount you donate, even a single one dollar, is sincerely appreciated. Below you will find a full list of where we will be using any and all donations.
Here is a list of what you can expect to see from your assistance in donations:
1) Official Application & Development of Non-Profit 501©3 Status
2) Help us to provide the continued efforts of one on one consultations
3) Dr. Brenda to provide discounted or no-cost counseling services to those who cannot otherwise afford or get to resources.
4) Provide supplies for Michal Madison to continue Art Therapy Services for children affected by abuse and/or violence
5) Development of Survivors World Community Support Group beginning in Trish’s home location of Breese, Illinois
6) Continued Prime Time Radio Broadcast community outreach educational & enlightenment self help programs
7) Provide special printing for Training & Support Materials used in speaking/training services or seminars
8) Provide continued growth and development for the website of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery
9) Aid in funding for special reports & surveys to provide further similarities in abuse and/or violence survivors, looking into the documented publications of the lifelong issues of emotional & physical health impacts from these types of trauma
10) Help us to continue our work in providing and building resources around the world to allow everyone to reclaim their self worth, live their dreams, and finally live free from the life altering impacts of these crimes, as well as aide in the emergency provision of services to victims, survivors, & families dealing with some form of past or present abuse or violence today.
Our Board of Directors are the very best in their field of Children & Youth Services, Legal Professionals, Mental Health & Family Therapy Services. You can rest assured of our constant and complete transparent provision of services with your much appreciated donations.
Founder/CEO: Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight
Co-Founder/COO: Michal Madison
Chairman of the Board of Directors: Ms. Dana Hoffman – Professional Legal Researcher, Children’s Youth Services
2nd Chair – Honorable Judge Mary Elizabeth Bullock – PENDING ACCEPTANCE
Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green – Owner/CEO, Afterglow Counseling, Mediation & Family Therapy Services; Mental Health/Family Therapy Educator
Mr. Robert Tschannen – Treasury Officer
Mr. Brett Sanders – Technology/Website Officer
Advisory Member – Ms. Lynn Tolson – Author/Advocate/Survivor; Project for T.E.A.R.S.
Advisory Member – Ms. Barbara Ochoa – Founder/CEO: PlunaFoundation, Help4Guys
Please visit Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery for Mission Statement, Testimonials, Code of Ethics Policy; Conflict of Interest Policy; Release of Liability Statement
Our family of Butterfly Angels who assist with supporting, sharing, and are support members in our live radio chatrooms:
Dawna Larsen – Admin Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United
Debbie Naylor Cox – Admin. Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United
Mary E. Graziano – Admin Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United
Patricia Caldwell Singleton – Admin Director – Abuse Survivors & Victims United
**Abuse Survivors & Victims United is a Facebook Online Support Group, please contact one of these admin directors for guidelines and interest at becoming a member.**
From ‘Trish’, Michal, Dr. Brenda, and all the Board Members of Butterfly Dreams we sincerely appreciate all of our wonderful family & friends, supporters & partners in ending the generational impact of what has already become mankind’s worst travesty, the pain inflicted on our partners, spouses, and especially our children. Thank you!!
Prosecuting Attorneys Association of Michigan
Victims Rights Annual Conference
Sept. 19th, 2013
It is with a very sincere thank you and a deep appreciation that I share….
On September 19th, I was given the very distinct honor to be invited to give a two hour presentation and share my survivor story at the Victims Rights Annual Conference, sponsored by the Prosecuting Attorney’s Association of Michigan State. In attendance were about 100 Advocates from across their great state who were there for the two and a half day conference. I was given the very special gift to present at the end of day two.
Along with sharing the horrific details of my story, there is also a Power Point presentation I developed to help advocates, community leaders, legal & healthcare professionals. This presentation gives information on detecting a victim of Child Abuse or Family/Relationship Violence, which is NOT commonly shared through other informational resources. These are specifics shared from a survivor’s point of view and the many RED FLAGS & WARNING SIGNS you may often dismiss, especially within your circle of family & friends. (Please check the website pages of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery; Child Abuse & Family Violence for the specifics on these warning signs, thank you)
It was such a huge opportunity to speak at the P.A.A.M. Conference and I hope other associations will reach out to arrange a presentation for their next event or conference. It is well known resources are being cut across the country and it is through these Survivor Presentations that all of us become more aware of how to better assist with detection, rescue, rebuilding, and recovery for families, victims and survivors today.
A couple hours of absorbed knowledge can continue the mission of connecting hearts & holding hands around the world, so that all beings, (Men, Women, & Children) are able to reclaim their value, soar into their dreams; developing the skills to Live Strong & Fly Free.
Thank you Ms. Angela Tomasko & Ms. Kirstyne Parker for reaching out and flying me in for this very special opportunity!!!
On behalf of myself, Michal Madison, Dr. Brenda Joyce Markert-Green, and the developing board members of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery; we all thank you and hope you will contact ‘Trish’ or another member of our unique team for your next upcoming event.
To arrange a training or speaking presentation please contact:
Feel free also to give us a call & leave a message @ 618-304-7438; we will certainly follow up with you or your organization.
We invite everyone to check out the website where we share much of this special information at http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com
You can also listen in to our many community outreach talk radio broadcasts by visiting http://www.blogtalkradio.com/butterflydreamsabuserecovery
Thank you one and all for supporting our continued efforts & growth in this enlightenment, empowerment, and educational mission of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery. May we all find the power to Live Strong & Fly Free!!!
Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight
Author: My Justice
Paperback – Ebook – Kindle & Nook Publications
**Artwork Designs for Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery are creations by;
**Michal Madison Watercolor Artist & Art Therapy Consultant
Co-Founder/COO – Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery
©Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery 2012
May I please ask for just a few moments of your time to read this message & view the short two minute attached video? Any consideration is hugely appreciated. http://youtu.be/0Rpt_oHU5NM
My name is Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight and I am reaching out to find an organization or person who will help me continue the healing journey forward.
Why I am contacting you….
There are many thousands of survivors of past abuses & violence speaking up today about the horrors of their past. In our society it seems we have become almost numb, trained into tolerating a certain level of these attacks within our homes. Today, I am trying to break this silent barrier!! Myself and many other advocates work online and in our communities constantly helping those who’ve been harmed to find their way out of the cloud of madness and finally find their own path in life, letting go of the pain to soar into their future. So now, I am contacting any and all who have the power to create change in our society. You have this power and you can encourage many others to stand with the survivors, rather than blame the victims. We were children left by the tolerated generational acceptance to these acts, but we no longer have to teach our children this tolerance. We can change how these crimes are looked at & prosecuted today. We can change their future by empowering them with voice. Erin’s Law has paved the doorway for us to teach our children about sexual abuse, but are we teaching them? Are we teaching them to speak up no matter who is harming them; even if it’s their parents. As most of us well know, these acts are most often done within the walls of our own homes. The families don’t want the embarrassment of the public’s knowledge so they put on the best front possible to the outside world, but when the door to our home is closed, then only the victims know how dark the evil can become.
You see, my family didn’t put up any kind of false front at all in our rural community, there was no perfect family life on the outside of our home. It was simply that my stepfather and his vicious temper were so well known that my mother got away with placing herself as a victim, but I know that she was never harmed by this man. Instead she gave him her oldest daughter, the child she had with her second husband and the one she used as a house slave, a family caregiver, the family whore.
A bit of my history; I grew up in Freeburg, Illinois, which used to be a small town American coal mining community. My time spent there was most of my youth from about 1969-1983. I know during these times things were much different than they are today, but not that much has changed in our rural areas, nor our cities when it comes to abuse & violence within our homes.
Sadly, I was the child a town forgot, a town dismissed, a town ignored and today I carry the emotional wounds & the physical scars because of the fear of my stepfather’s evil. At the age of five he first viciously molested me while my mother was at her bridal shower preparing to marry him just a few weeks later. This attack was done while he was babysitting my brother and two other neighbor boys. He enjoyed that he could be evil with an audience to watch and it just got worse from that moment forward.
At the age of nine my mother walked in early from work and found him in bed with me; completely naked with his erection ready to be inserted. At eleven he began offering me out to other local men at the town’s bars for the price of a couple of beers. I was just twelve years old when he brutally raped me with the barrel of his favorite shotgun, my younger sister & older brother were downstairs watching their favorite television show. By the time I was thirteen the people of Freeburg didn’t see a child being sold out, brutally attacked, ignored & neglected from all forms of medical care & human kindness; they saw the girl who was used to excite their husbands, too well informed about sex for her age. In short, the reputation I had at this very young age was simply put as, ‘The village whore’ and this reputation would stay with me throughout my teens.
My mother would not protect me from him, although she knew exactly what was happening. She wouldn’t stop him from trapping her child in the bathroom every time I tried to bathe. He used his ugly games to teach me how to wash the right parts of my body; this started right after they were married. Mother also refused ANY & ALL forms of medical care or basic human needs, even human kindness for her own daughter was something she just couldn’t allow herself to do. She used her daughter as her housekeeper, babysitter, family caregiver, cook and willingly sacrificed her daughter so that she would not have to tolerate the sadistic needs of the man she chose as a husband.
By the time I reached thirteen, I had already taken my own small step at protecting myself when I chose to stop bathing, sounds disgusting I know. From the age of twelve when he wouldn’t leave the bathroom and mother wouldn’t chase him out as she sat downstairs hearing me shout out for her help; this is when I took that horrible choice and never bathed again for almost FIVE YEARS. Think about this please, just for a moment, a young girl beginning her periods, growing through puberty, used as a house slave, given as property, sold to local men for their enticement & wandering hands; even her own family still see her today as HIS WHORE and not the child who needed rescued from their evil cruelty. The small town of Freeburg left me to grow in this hell; filthy, rotting, and disgusting.
I attended Carl L. Barton Elementary school at the early stages of his evil attacks, which haunted me in the bed I shared with my much younger sister. His almost nightly visits were predatory and his thick coal stained hand clamped tight around my mouth to prevent so much as a whimper from seeping out. The next day at school my homework was never completed and the teacher’s would berate and belittle me, calling me stupid, lazy; making a point to direct attention my way. They were disgusted by the child whose skin was rotting away; encrusted filth covered my skin, my teeth plaque covered and broken black fangs dangling in my mouth. Almost everyone avoided physical contact in fear of catching whatever was eating away at my flesh. You’ll see a brief video attached above which shows the scars from the infection that covered almost every inch of my skin. My breath was rancid, my body horrifying and with an order as bad as the breath from my mouth. Simply put, I carried every single sign of wicked abuse, neglect, disgusting hygiene, a reputation that was built from being traded out; the local daughters were not permitted to hang out with me and the sons were not allowed to date me. I was garbage and EVERYONE in our small American town knew who to call when I did something wrong, they knew who the parent’s of this rotting whorish child were, but not ONE SINGLE PERSON ever asked so much as a question about my well being. Not one single teacher ever said a word, not one single adult man who attended the late night parties at our house for years ever said a word about the girl they used and then discarded; not one young school mate who came to the house parties filled with marijuana & alcohol, accepting the forced oral sex and handed this filthy girl as a toy ever said a word when they saw me in school the next day. It seemed all those years not one single person, not family, not neighbors, not even our local law enforcement or the many who came for the fun; I MATTERED TO NO ONE and THEY LEFT ME TO ROT IN THE HOUSE OF HORRORS.
The life I lived when I left my childhood, was one filled with self destruction; lost, confused, alcohol & marijuana addition, then into more than 20 years of almost deadly relationship/domestic violence. My three beautiful children born to my first husband had no choice but to grow in the shadow of a broken abused mother. They hid in the closets as my second husband violently beat me and on more than one occasion almost killed me. This evil of violence & abuse which took the voice of the little girl so long ago, then invaded my children’s lives and it took me until their mid teens to finally break away and slowly build a broken, but safe, existence for them and for me.
Today, people have referred to me as a ‘Hero’, ‘Conqueror over Abuse’, and even a ‘Freedom Fighter’, however I’m just simply doing what is now deeply engrained in my soul. I, along with co-founder Michal Madison, are presently building a nonprofit organization to help provide knowledge, understanding, and help for families, victims, survivors & communities who have been harmed or are dealing with some form of abuse; Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery the website Steps to Recovery, along with the community outreach broadcast of Butterfly Dreams Talk Radio, which has built a huge social following and reached over 30,000 listeners is turning into a great success – bringing awareness, enlightenment, empowerment, support, hope & faith for the many millions of survivors & advocates around the world.
This was a chance to empower healthcare professionals to take every opportunity to question the safety of everyone who visits their offices; they may not get a second chance to save a life or rescue a victim. Coming up next, on the 19th of Sept., I am giving a two hour training presentation at the Victims Rights Annual Conference in Bay City, Michigan; invited personally by the Prosecuting Attorneys Association of Michigan.
Thankfully, by the grace of Creator, I am alive today to share hope & help for the many who are still living trapped in the silence of these crimes. I’ve published my memoir of hell, in the story ‘My Justice’, built an incredible talk radio program, and am now moving forward with building the official nonprofit status for Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming. I am here to encourage others to stand up and say something, protect the children within our families, within our neighbor’s homes, and never let another child be so ignored by a community that they are left to rot in the evil within their home.
Thank you for any time you have given this message and plea for your attention. I’m grateful to be able to speak up and help others know their life after abuse is possible. I am grateful that I have finally found love; I am finally safe, and although I carry the physical & emotional wounds, although I carry the ugly scars & broken teeth; I am still alive!! I am building dreams in hopes that one day we can end this tolerance and begin teaching the true value of our children’s lives. They are not simply objects to be used, beaten, raped, sold and stolen away. We can inspire hope & help together, connecting hearts & holding hands around the world.
Patricia A. McKnight
Exec. Director: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming
Educational & Empowerment Speaker
Survivor & Emotional Health Abuse Recovery Research
Survivors World online support group
**Believe all things are possible with you in the active equation** ~trish mcknight
art designs by: Michal Madison, Watercolor Artist for the Abused
©Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery 2012
Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery
& talk radio programming
Meet Our Special Team!!
Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green, DMFT, LMFT, CPGTSP
Educator & Adjunct Faculty Member @ La Sierra University in Southern California
Clinical Member; American Association of Marriage & Family Therapy
Dr. Brenda, as we affectionately call her, hosts her very own show with us the LAST TUESDAY OF EVERY MONTH. Our newest host member brings not only an expertise of Family Therapy, she also have a spiritual side to her knowledge and talent. She offers a thought provoking, life empowerment, healing our Emotional Health on evening a month. This show isn’t offered as a professional advice program, but you can connect with Dr. Brenda or check out the Facebook page for her services. This host is a deeply compassionate soul who brings not just her educated and professional knowledge, but adds a personal undertone to her discussions. We will share a SPECIAL EVENT ANNOUNCEMENT for her broadcast as a reminder, so we do hope you join in the open phone chats about many varying topics to help our emotional wellbeing no matter what difficulties you may be having in life today. You don’t have to pay for these chats with this fabulous healer/advisor/spiritual connector, just join in to listen to her live broadcasts. Butterfly Dreams Dr. Brenda – page design under construction!!!
Ms. Debra Mize – Domestic Violence Specialist – Life Coach Motivator
15 years in social service field, Illinois Certified Domestic Violence Professional
Completing Certification program in Life Coaching
Debby brings to our shows quite a list of professional expertise in the knowledge of Domestic/Family Violence & Abuse, but she is also a survivor. Most recently for Debby she is beginning a new leg of her own journey as she is furthering her education in Domestic Violence Policy at University of Colorado. She has developed her own special life skills program; Metamorphosis. This well honed in actual use program is developed to help anyone gain back or rebuild that drive for personal achievement or simply figure out how to overcome some of the many life obstacles we deal with in society today. Her very real and down to earth approach at helping us become independently goal focused and confident, commonly happy in ourselves, more importantly who we can become. You will love her personality as well as how she hosts her programs as only she can present. Join in with Debby & Metamorphosis every THURSDAY EVENING!! She’ll be sharing the direct show link and making the announcement, along with her special topic, so be sure to watch for them and connect with her fan advising page. You will also find a special page for this host and her program through our website – Metamorphosis Debby
Michal Madison; Watercolor Artist/Advocate/Radio Host/Survivor
Vice President: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery; Michal is not only the VP and personal friend of mine, but she is a highly talented Watercolor Artist, whose creations you will instantly bond. Her magical talents have been most recently noted by Child Help (nationwide child rescue organization). This well noted organization has asked Michal in to their Art Therapy sessions at a local village in Southern California. She will be working directly with those rescued children to help them better express the many dark secrets inside. All the pain these children have felt is now about to find ways to disappear as Michal guides them through their creative path. All who Michal is today as a survivor of a lifetime living in control, sexual abuse, violence, she brings to our radio broadcasts and in the magic of her artwork. She can be found joining me for various broadcasts or hosting them individually. Be sure to check out all the artwork shared on our website and the special page we have dedicated to Michal Madison Art.
Patricia ‘Trish’ McKnight
Founder/CEO/Author/Advocate/Speaker/Talk Radio Prod & Host/Survivor
‘Trish’, as she is commonly known, developed and wrote the information shared on Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery. You’ll find her lived and self-educated expertise shared in the Four Beginning Steps to Recovery on our homepage. These are intended to empower you with the needed beginning skills to start your own healing journey today. Also the awareness/educational/community empowerment knowledge she shares on the pages for Child Abuse, Child Maltreatment Report, Relationship Violence; is insight that is not usually found on other sites. This information is aimed at helping you learn some RED FLAG WARNING SIGNS to help you spot a victim in need today. You will also find the THREE CRUCIAL STEPS for you to take instantly in any type of abusive or violent attack. Also you’ll find a special page with all of Trish’s personal/professional information, her book links and more on the dedicated page for Patricia McKnight’s My Justice. Check out this information, join Trish during her upbeat interviews and discussions on our radio shows every MONDAY & WEDNESDAY EVENING. You are invited to connect with her on many social sites, Facebook, Linkedin, Twitter, Google+, Pinterest, and Tumblr; AWARD WINNING BLOG through http://www.survivorsjustice.com
Speaking Engagements: email direct firstname.lastname@example.org
July 10th St. Clair County Courthouse; Victim Impact Statement
Sept 19th Victim Advocate Training Conference; 2hour Training Event
Annual Victim Advocate Training Conference, Lansing MI
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‘Life changing, Highly Reviewed
by Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green
Marriage & Family Therapy Training Course
La Sierra University
‘My Justice’ is a horrifying, but excellently written autobiography about the sadistic thirty plus years survived by one local woman who grew up within the small community of Freeburg, Illinois. Located just 40 miles outside of St. Louis; Author Patricia A. McKnight is sharing a life lived in hell, which is a FIVE STAR RATED tale of just how dark one man’s actions can be to the child within his home.
Ms. Debra Mize, Prevention Coordinator & Educator for Violence Prevention Center of Southwestern Illinois, refers to this incredible story as the most powerful since she read and attended a speaking engagement presented by the great author Dave Pelzer and his autobiography, ‘A Child Called It; One child’s courage to survive’ which made the leading New York Times Best Seller List”.
“My Justice; Shocking, Disturbing, Emotionally Charging throughout every page!”
This powerful story will rock the moral foundations of everyone who reads. Patricia A. McKnight; Author/Advocate/Speaker, now founder of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Talk Radio Programming, begins her story at just five years old as a happy little girl filled with excitement, but the moment she open’s the door to the next thirty plus years of her life, everything you thought you knew about the evils lurking within our homes will be forever changed’.
Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green: whose highly skilled reputation as a Family & Marriage Counselor, Owner & CEO at Afterglow Counseling, Mediation & Family Services, Trainer for American Association for Marriage & Family Therapy, Educator and Adjunct Faculty Board Member of La Sierra University, located in Riverside, California is now using this incredible autobiography as REQUIRED READING for her students in the field of therapy and family counseling. “My family therapy students are required not only to read this autobiography, they are also required to complete an exam and classroom discussion on what they absorbed and felt; what can they take forward as therapist to increase their senses, skills and expertise as counselors, and to enhance their abilities to better help their clients. This story leaves a deep, lasting impression on my students, which I’ve seen first hand. It truly changes how we see the lives of those around us and how the victims are left so shattered by these acts of viciousness.”
Mr. Peter Thomas Senese: Best Selling Geo-Political Thriller Author/Child Advocate & Founder of I CARE Foundation, who also helped build a women’s shelter and who, in his capacity with the I CARE Foundation, sponsored a conference at the United Nations at the request of the Department of State on international parental child abduction and trafficking, while working to create new laws and government policies that will protect children from kidnapping said of Ms. McKnight in numerous articles and essays, a ‘Hero; A conqueror over abuse and calls this book a ‘Blue Print to Freedom from Abuse’, but it is so much more for by penned word and by action after action, Ms. McKnight and all that encompasses who she is educates or reminds each of us that all of our voices matter. On this note, ‘My Justice’ is a map to find one’s courage, and in it, freedom. As an avid reader and best-selling author, ‘My Justice’ sits in a very special area in my home – and next to ‘Unbowed’ by Noble Prize writer and friend, Wangari Maathai – as ‘My Justice’ has had that significant an impact on my life and my own call-to-arms to protect innocent children from abuse. In my capacity with the I CARE Foundation fighting against child kidnappers, there are many times that I would ask myself while dealing with these difficult cases of families in crisis, “What would Tricia do?” Then answer has led to many children once bound to know freedom . . . and that is just how significant of an impact ‘My Justice’ has had on me and the community of children we serve around the world.
Ms. Linda Walcher: Educator in the Fayetteville & Freeburg, Illinois school system for over 20 years and now a leading member in the Illinois Retired Teachers Association and mentor for many college students has this to share about ‘My Justice’ and the little girl she once had as a student. ‘As an educator, I first met Ms. McKnight when she entered my fourth grade class. Being fresh out of college and a very young teacher then; she was one of my first students. In her bright blue eyes I saw just a happy, beautiful little girl. As I moved on to continue my long time career in the same school system she attended, I truly had no clue as to the life I could have saved in that child. It is only in the last few years, since first reading the details of her endured beatings and sadistic crimes of her step-father, that I have reached out and fully support every effort she puts forth on a daily basis to use her learned and lived knowledge to try and help many others. As an active member in the Retired Teachers Association and with the mentoring of upcoming educators now in college, there is not enough I can say about how this book has changed my entire thinking process. Back in the 70’s we were not as educated or made aware as we should have been about child abuse and what signs to watch for in children. Throughout my years as an educator I was able to help rescue a few children, but reading this story brought all of that little girl’s Red Flag Warning Signs, which she was waving around with all her might, but I just didn’t have the knowledge or the training then to help her. ‘My Justice’ is a book which I highly recommend for anyone who spends time with children.’
Incredibly, Ms. McKnight has taken all of her many years of tragedy and turned them into something she is hoping will help rescue victims of Child Abuse and Family or Domestic Violence. She has now built Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery, which can be found by visiting her website http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com. There she begins with a few basic steps which are FREE to use by absolutely anyone to help with rebuilding life after any form of abuse or violence has effected you or someone you love. On this new site you will find educational and awareness information about what to do if you’ve just recently been harmed and what we can be aware of as a society to help those around us who may be struggling to cope through some form of abuse.
Patricia A. McKnight, known as ‘Trish’ to those who chat with her almost daily, has endured a life that most of us cannot imagine, but to her it was just seen as ‘normal’. She knows the path many victims of these crimes follow in the aftermath of being violated. In her drive to better help us understand she is making all of us aware and hoping to be just one of the voices in the beginning of change.
‘The purpose for publishing ‘My Justice’ was a need to explain and apologize to my children for the many broken repeated violent relationships I engaged in, which have left wounds in their lives. The bitter truth is there was never any legal form of justice to come from all the years of almost murderous violence and sadistic evil, but I needed to release myself from the hand covering my mouth and holding me captive in dysfunctions and madness all these decades; this is how and why I needed to publish this story. What has made a deeper impact on me is the many millions living in our society today just like me; some with even more horrific stories than mine. Because of the way we have been taught to view these actions, there are now an estimated 50 Million or more who know how dark a parent or trusted person’s actions can become. It should be these stories of generations past and present; my voice and the voices of many others, which should be our society’s learning examples of how these crimes, and they are actually evil criminal acts against our own children and our partners; how they set up human beings to live out their lives in a broken existence without ever seeing any value in their person. Even though these actions have been going on in our homes and communities since the dawn of mankind, doesn’t make it the right way to live. It means that we have to step up our game against these behaviors and see them for what they are ‘Nothing less than a learned way to live and treat others’, a disrespect and need for power over another human being. We need to toughen our prosecutions for these crimes and begin protecting everyone around us, not just our own children. What we have permitted by teaching silence to the victims, is what I refer to as our own ‘Man-Made Cancer’ only there is no wonder science which will ever provide the cure. Only by being aware, being vigilant, and being educated about the impacts of the aftermath; the many lifelong struggles of mental health disorders such as; P.T.S.D; Depression, Anxiety, Drug & Alcohol Addictions, Eating Disorders, and even worse the many who’ve committed suicide because of the horrible after effects. Seeing these ugly realities for what they are is the only way we will be able to change what has been taught as so normal. I believe when you discard someone because of their dysfunctions and what many may judge as being ‘less worthy’ or ‘damaged’; then you are discarding a victim or a survivor, someone who has been or is now being brutalized by someone they love. It is by learning from the experts, many of whom make up the millions of survivors today, that we will be able to change our thinking towards these crimes. This is our only hope for providing some form of rescue for our children’s future. Our kids are watching all of the activities across the internet today and they are paying attention to what we do when it comes to helping them cope with all their daily battles. I wonder how they will think of us if we continue to ignore these ugly, vicious, soul destroying actions as we’ve been taught?”
If you would like to find our more about this survivor turned, Author/Advocate/Speaker/Talk Radio Prod & Host, Founder of Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery, you can contact her by emailing direct to email@example.com or firstname.lastname@example.org. You can also visit her website http://www.butterflydreamsabuserecovery.com to enlighten yourself and others about the recovery process or what you may be able to do, not only to spot a victim in your family or workplace, but also create a greater vigilance within your communities and school systems. ‘Trish’ can also be found across many of our social networking sites today. This engaging and empowering speaker is happy to share with your churches, schools, any outlet you choose to give hope and help to all of those who directly relate with children, young single mothers, and many men who are living the life of heavy dark secrets today.
You are invited to view her latest speaking engagement through this You Tube Video; http://youtu.be/tujWedUtdf0 This was at the Illinois Healthcares Grant Education Seminar held in Belleville, Illinois; National Shrine of our Lady of the Snows, where the Violence Prevention Center initiated a training seminar with the outstanding Dr. Elaine Alpert. One of America’s Global Health Staff & Advisors out of Massachusetts General Hospital, who is a panel discussion member and actively speaking for the Education and Enhanced Collaboration of Health Professionals to rescue and provide help for victims of child abuse, domestic violence, and human trafficking.
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Published Sept. 1, 1995 by Health Communications, Incorporated and now a well known library and school reference autobiography.
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It is with great honor that I am extremely happy to share the latest news and reviews for ‘My Justice’.
You may be aware this is my own true story of a life lived in hell throughout thirty-two years of extreme violence, sadistic sexual attacks, repeated physical attacks, which were nothing less than attempted murder. The more crucial part of this novel is the emotional, neglectful, and mental conditioning which left me trapped in this life.
Beginning at the age of just five years old, I was viciously molested and probed by my then to be stepfather the night of my mother’s bridal shower while he was watching over as babysitter for me, my brother and two neighbor boys that evening. He took claim to me that night and would hold me as his property, his slave in all aspects of the word, for the next twelve years. His attacks would grow more severe and the entrapment I felt would deepen as the members of the community around me watched and some even took part in the trafficking of a child for the exploitation and satisfaction of this demon in the flesh. At the age of 11 he began exploiting and selling me out for the cost of a couple of draft beers. At the age of 12, when I reached out for my mother’s help, he viciously took my virginity with the barrel of his favorite shotgun; ripping my insides apart that would leave me scarred and torn without ever so much as a phone call to a doctor for medical care as I walked away dripping blood on the floor. My brother and sister were downstairs watching television during the attack, but I was held so silently with the fear of having him pull the trigger with the barrel inside me that I never spoke another word about his brutal evil until I was thirty-seven years old and in the middle of my second nervous breakdown.
My mother completely sacrificed me to this devil without ever saying a word about the bruises, the torture, or the selling and exploitation of her daughter. She walked in and found us in bed naked together with his erection ready to be inserted when I was just nine years old. In her words she repeatedly talked about the time when “she walked in and caught us in bed together”. Using the word “caught” would somehow imply that I had a say in the action and that I was the instigator of his sexual advances. She blamed me, yelled at me, and sent me to my room for the night. It was early on in their marriage that he began walking in and ‘teaching’ me how to bathe and what to wash, with instructions on how to wash the intimate parts of a child’s body. There were many times when I yelled out over the years for her to make him leave the room or to make him stop, but with her disregard of her child she allowed him to do with me as he pleased so that she would not have to be held to the responsibilities of their marriage. For me however, this would be an ongoing experience, much like his nightly visits to my room where he held me captive in silence with his coal black stained hand gripping tightly over my mouth. It was at the age of twelve that I then made a conscious decision to quit bathing completely in order to provide some measure of protection for myself. Sadly, although we had excellent healthcare insurance, the decision to quit bathing led to the filth, stench, and a skin eating infection that would rot my arms and legs away over the next four years; all of which were without seeing a physician for my care or providing so much as a toothbrush to prevent her daughter from completely rotting away. Also, during these years his acts of exploitation and selling, raping, beating her daughter into submission would continue to escalate in their evil nature. I clearly remember that one Friday late night party when the call came in for me to prepare the house for his after work party with another ten adult men and me as their entertainment, when my mother simply looked me straight in the eye and stated “have fun” as she went in her bedroom to watch television and closed the door behind her. I was his and she could have cared less. My existence in her house was simply to be the cook, the housekeeper, babysitter and family caretaker. This is all that she found useful or valuable in the child she had given birth and brought into this world.
The community in which I spent most of my life, Freeburg, Illinois was a small coal mining community where everyone knew each other and their business. I attended the same school system for nine consecutive years; Carl L. Barton Community School and Freeburg Community High School. We lived in the same town and as I grew I would work in two of our local restaurants. My point on this is still one that I have problems with today. The entire community, again all who knew me by sight if not by name, to include the school officials, law enforcement, local business owners where either I or my mother worked, the many adult men who attended the parties at our house or were at the bars where again I was the drunken child and entertainment; all of these and including even some school boys who were in attendance at many of the teen drug and alcohol filled parties, they were all witnesses to and some even took part in the vicious trafficking and exploitation of the child who was brutally and viciously beaten into submission and handed out like a party favor. They watched over the years as my body decayed; my arms and legs covered with deep flesh eating infected sores, my mouth filled with plaque covered black broken fangs from lack of medical or dental care, but NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON EVER SAID A WORD OR QUESTIONED MY WELL BEING.
This is why I share my story, why I published ‘My Justice’, why I give voice to the horrific child maltreatment and the community ignorance which left me believing I deserved nothing better and no one would ever find value in my existence. This is the ignorance that teaches our children that these acts are to be expected or seen as normal in their relationships. This is the continued ignorance that I will battle against trying to educate and build a strong front of vigilance to protect the life and well being of all living creatures, but more specifically our children and their value as our next generation. If we do not become involved with the prevention and help rescue the children who live in this hell today, our society will continue on the escalating downslide of human disregard of decency, respect, concern and mental dysfunction. This abuse and violence within our homes has become our own man-made cancer that we have allowed to silently flourish and destroy all that is good in the creation of mankind. We have stood idly by listening and witnessing repeated child brutality by their parents and caregivers. We’ve allowed them to be bought and sold as property to live a life of hell in sex slavery or tortured labor without ever giving a second thought to their purpose and value as children building the basis for our next generation.
Will you continue to watch and allow this madness to rule our existence or will you decide to become a protector of others and allow the opportunity for them to live in what is deserved, simply to live SAFE IN THEIR HOMES?
Having shared these thoughts with you, allow me to provide you with the latest update in the continued success of ‘My Justice’.
Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green whose highly skilled reputation as a Family & Marriage Counselor, Owner & CEO at Afterglow Counseling, Mediation & Family Services, Trainer for American Association for Marriage & Family Therapy, Educator and Adjunct Faculty Board Member of La Sierra University, located in Riverside, California is now using this incredible novel as REQUIRED READING for her students in the field of therapy and family counseling. Along with the REQUIRED READING she also presents them with an exam and classroom discussion about the many silent warning signs of abuse and violence in our homes and the wounds it leaves on the victims. She uses this novel to educate her students about the many mental and emotional impacts of these horrific crimes, which they then maintain in their skills and awareness for their future in family and childhood therapy, social services and other arenas of education and support. It is a huge honor to have this story be shared in such a manner to leave a lasting impression on these students. There is no higher gift which can make such a an impact on our society tomorrow and how we handle the many lifelong mental, physical, and emotional wounds inflicted by these heinous crimes which we so easily disregard.
Dr. Brenda Joyce Orozco Markert-Green, there is no way that I can share with you the amazing depth of appreciation for what you are doing and for your support in my voice, my activities, and most importantly ‘My Justice’. I so sincerely hope that one day I have the opportunity to meet you and speak with you so that I can somehow at least share my sincere gratitude. You are using ‘My Justice’ to make a definite impact on how our society will handle these issues for years to come. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Friends please share this and pass it forward in however you are able. It is crucial for all of us to come together as one strong stand in our society and bring an end and hope for rescue in the lives of our children and the positive influence we hope to leave on the next generation.
Patricia A. McKnight
Author: ‘My Justice’
Advocate/Speaker/Blogger/Talk Radio Prod. & Host/Survivor
Founder: Butterfly Dreams Abuse Recovery & Blog Talk Radio Programming
Educator & Adjunct Faculty Member, La Sierra University
Mental Health Expert & Trainer for Family & Marriage Counseling
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